Before I begin let me say that I don't believe that I'm an apostle, prophet or teacher. So please don't take me wrong. I reject titles and I don't know what I am to he honest. I'm no apostle Paul that's for sure. I try to follow him and the other apostle though as we all should.
Anyway, getting to the point of this thread, I've experienced things that make me afraid and times of fear and confusion. I believed that it's the shadow death in psalms 23. I believed that its also the daily dying that Paul teaches about. He died daily. I feel so oppressed sometimes that I weep.
I don't know what it is. Is it mental illness, spiritual warfare, the cross, or all of the above maybe?. I don't even know. I'm very fearful and weak. People will likely say that God hasn't given us a spirit of fear but the apostles knew the fear of God. They were confused at times as well.
Corinthians 4:8 We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed—
10 always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. 11 For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus’ sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12 So then death is working in us, but life in you.
13 And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written, “I believed and therefore I spoke,” we also believe and therefore speak, 14 knowing that He who raised up the Lord Jesus will also raise us up with Jesus, and will present us with you. 15 For all things are for your sakes, that grace, having spread through the many, may cause thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God.
Seeing the Invisible
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. 17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, 18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
Anyway, getting to the point of this thread, I've experienced things that make me afraid and times of fear and confusion. I believed that it's the shadow death in psalms 23. I believed that its also the daily dying that Paul teaches about. He died daily. I feel so oppressed sometimes that I weep.
I don't know what it is. Is it mental illness, spiritual warfare, the cross, or all of the above maybe?. I don't even know. I'm very fearful and weak. People will likely say that God hasn't given us a spirit of fear but the apostles knew the fear of God. They were confused at times as well.
Corinthians 4:8 We are hard-pressed on every side, yet not crushed; we are perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not forsaken; struck down, but not destroyed—
10 always carrying about in the body the dying of the Lord Jesus, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our body. 11 For we who live are always delivered to death for Jesus’ sake, that the life of Jesus also may be manifested in our mortal flesh. 12 So then death is working in us, but life in you.
13 And since we have the same spirit of faith, according to what is written, “I believed and therefore I spoke,” we also believe and therefore speak, 14 knowing that He who raised up the Lord Jesus will also raise us up with Jesus, and will present us with you. 15 For all things are for your sakes, that grace, having spread through the many, may cause thanksgiving to abound to the glory of God.
Seeing the Invisible
16 Therefore we do not lose heart. Even though our outward man is perishing, yet the inward man is being renewed day by day. 17 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory, 18 while we do not look at the things which are seen, but at the things which are not seen. For the things which are seen are temporary, but the things which are not seen are eternal.
