Watching enough inappropriate content to make Larry Flynt blush would tend to indicate some issues on it's own. Coupled with a virgin obsession, when you yourself are far from chaste, seems a bit off to me. As in you've developed this obsession with virgins because after 8 hour inappropriate content screenings featuring comically large penises you've managed to give yourself crippling inadequacy issues.
I actually don't have any qualms about my size
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Ok, let me try to put this a different way. If you look in the bible, look at how the old testament deals with people who have sex outside of marriage. There are generally 2 options, you have to marry them,or you die. Now, REALLY think about that, let it sink in. God considered it so detrimental to a relationship that he didn't say "don't do it again" he said "MARRY THEM", spend the rest of your life with them, they are the person you are going to go to sleep beside every single night, the person you are going to have in your household and who is going to help raise your children. Its THAT important. I don't know the exact reasons god has for that, but he obviously thought it was a pretty freaking important in a relationship.
I'm not saying if you mess up and have sex outside marriage you should marry the person you did it with or be stoned to death, we are forgive and living under grace now. However those reasons that god had , whatever they are, are still valid reasons because its still a sin. If I was to falter and have sex outside marriage then it would no longer be an issue for me, but because I AM a virgin, then I want a virgin. I'm not "obsessed" with it, I don't walk around all day thinking about how much I want a virgin, but it IS something I desire in my wife.
As far as the inappropriate content goes, I would thank you if you didn't attack the sin I struggle with since I've brought it before god asking repentance and am doing my best not to give in to those desires.
Also, look at inappropriate content use this way. Yea, Ive watched inappropriate content, a good bit of it, but I still haven't had sex. Thats like telling someone who has never touched a skateboard in there life but has spent years watching skate videos that he is an experienced skater, no he isn't, he hasn't gotten on a board, has no Idea how to balance on it, and is probably going to fall down a whole lot when he actually starts skating. I'm not minimizing my inappropriate content use, because it IS a sin and a form of adultry, and it IS the same when I stand before god as if I had sex, HOWEVER the consequences in this life of me watching inappropriate content are very different than if I had been sleeping around.
At least you aware of the fact that your chances of actually finding one are slim to none.
I can understand about not wanting to be compared to another guy, but here's the thing about sex I want you to think about: the more you do it, the better it gets.
yes, but I would rather have a woman who sucks at it and develop that "skill" together than have someone who has had sex a hundred times and can give you the most sensual experience ever.