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Hi everyone
has anyone else ever thought that maybe its all in your head? a couple of days ago i got into a fight with my older brother (who assaulted me the last time was a year ago) he claims that nothing happened.
and that makes me think maybe i'm wrong? Maybe it was just my perception of it? because i was always fearful that something like that would happen to me, so maybe when i was in that situation i just expected that i would be assaulted? i'm so confused
i feel like if i was wrong i have ruined everything, this has really torn my family apart and caused a lot of pain for many people. and what if it was all just cuz of my ability to blow things WAY out of proportion? plus its difficult for me to actually remember what happened clearly. anyway i feel so guilty what if i'm wrong? I dont even feel like i deserve to be alive. i'm all ears if anyone has anything to say....
has anyone else ever thought that maybe its all in your head? a couple of days ago i got into a fight with my older brother (who assaulted me the last time was a year ago) he claims that nothing happened.
and that makes me think maybe i'm wrong? Maybe it was just my perception of it? because i was always fearful that something like that would happen to me, so maybe when i was in that situation i just expected that i would be assaulted? i'm so confused
i feel like if i was wrong i have ruined everything, this has really torn my family apart and caused a lot of pain for many people. and what if it was all just cuz of my ability to blow things WAY out of proportion? plus its difficult for me to actually remember what happened clearly. anyway i feel so guilty what if i'm wrong? I dont even feel like i deserve to be alive. i'm all ears if anyone has anything to say....