Hello all, I was on here years ago with a post. I suffer from recurring skitzoeffective disorder. I have every 2-3 years for about 4 months straight. I am a firm believer in Jesus Christ, his word and all he represents. I'm currently in the middle of another episode. My voices represent various people I know or have been acquainted with. I still don't know what are behind the voices whether some demonic entities or just bad brain chemistry. My delusions would have me believe it's the mystical body of Christ I'm connecting with on some level—I do not know that to be true in reality. I do know demonic or not I am filled with the Holy Spirit and that is a major factor. Perhaps it is true for a believer to be demonized and God over rules that for good in his children. I know God has made my voices most helpful to me in the way of sanctification. My voices encourage me to be holy. They especially have helped me read my Bible. They also help make me take every thought captive in obedience to Christ. I do not experience any destructive influences encouraging towards sin or suicide. I'm not saying that if one does experience dark voices that makes them not a Christian, that has just not been my experience. I'm currently writing a book of essays entitled “The Psychotic Christian.” The book deals with my experience being a Christian suffering with this disorder. Just because my voices are benign it doesn't mean I still don't suffer. It is hard to concentrate and feels like your being pulled in every which way direction. Feeling like your sharing your brain literally with other people and you can't control it can be disconcerting. My psychosis/suffering though has taught me to cling to Christ and hold loosely to the delusions and what they could mean. My heart goes out to anyone suffering with this disorder to hang in there take your meds and cling to Christ with all you got. There are so many gracious promises in God's word for those who suffer--Like in Romans 8:28: “And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.” Or like in Romans 8:38: “And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God's love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow--not even the powers of hell can separate us from God's love.” I truly believe God can make something beautiful out our suffering as his children, for we are his masterpiece--Ephesians 2:10.
--Blessings J.N.A
--Blessings J.N.A
