yes and now that I have analyzed what I have said,I realize I didn't directly say anything against the Holy Spirit,but I'm not sure if you have to *directly*say things against the Spirt in order to commit blasphemy of the Holy Spirit,or if you not specifically address the Spirit and still blaspheme Him.....
Most people assume that blasphemy of the Holy Spirit is like calling the Holy Spirit names and other insulting comments, but that is not it. I know that this thread all stems from the verse...
Matthew 12:31 And so I tell you, every sin and blasphemy will be forgiven men, but the blasphemy against the Spirit will not be forgiven.
so let's take a closer look..
Think of it this way, the Holy Spirit has feelings too. So just like you, the Holy Spirit can grieve.
Ephesians 4:30 And grieve not the holy Spirit of God, whereby ye are sealed unto the day of redemption.
What grieves the Holy Spirit is the continual disobedience to His messages to your heart. Continually against the Holy Spirit's convictions upon your heart, you continue to do wrong. As in this scriptural example where lying does not stop from your mouth when you know better.
1 Timothy 4:2 Speaking lies in hypocrisy; having their conscience seared with a hot iron;
Every time you lie, you are grieving the Holy Spirit and searing your own conscience to hear the Holy Spirit no more.
In the case that you presented, you have shown repentence, when the conviction came for you to repent. You have not, from what I understand your thread to be saying continually said that which is not true. You have learned the truth, and are now walking in it. This is something that the Lord rejoices over.
Only the devil would want you to believe that you are too far gone to be salvageable. Not so, as so many on this thread have reassured you. The very fact that you know that you have sinned, are a sinner, repent, and are convicted of sin, says that you in the working hands of our Lord and He will continue to lead and guide you as long as you continue to follow Him.
Remember that being convicted is not enough.
John 8:9 And they which heard it, being convicted by their own conscience, went out one by one, beginning at the eldest, even unto the last: and Jesus was left alone, and the woman standing in the midst.
It just means the Lord has not given up on you.
When you committed this act, it was in ignorance. The Lord does handle innocent ignorance a little differently.
Acts 17:30 And the times of this ignorance God winked at; but now commandeth all men every where to repent:
So fear not, since you have come to the knowledge and have been asked to repent, the Lord has forgiven you. SO I am like Paul, in that I to say...
2 Corinthians 7:9 Now I rejoice, not that ye were made sorry, but that ye sorrowed to repentance: for ye were made sorry after a godly manner, that ye might receive damage by us in nothing.
Remember..
2 Corinthians 7:10 For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death.
Although, I will give you one SERIOUS WARNING... You can grieve the Holy Spirit by selling your soul and birthright the Lord has promised. Hopefully nothing on this earth is worth such a cheap temporary need now exchange as Esau's....
Hebrews 12:16 Lest there be any fornicator, or profane person, as Esau, who for one morsel of meat sold his birthright. 17 For ye know how that afterward, when he would have inherited the blessing, he was rejected: for he found no place of repentance, though he sought it carefully with tears.
Hopefully you know what a precious find you have in Yeshua.
