Hi guys,
Well I became a Christian when i was 16. I was so excited and the first year or two were so exciting and spirit-filled for me that I would not take a second look at the things of the world. When I turned 18 & with the pressure of the HSC I started going out a lot partying & I got off track with my faith. Now I'm almost 19 and im about to go to uni and I know God loves me and I have no doubt in my mind that he isnt real....but I just dont want to live as a christian. I know this is bad, ok. I have so much fun and I just love who I am and love life when I go out partying and I love the sponteneity and freedom of living as a "non-christian". When I come back to God I feel so sheltered and I cant go anywhere because there is nothing for people my age to do as Christians. everything is so restricted; every time I go out I have to be cautious that I dont drink too much, dont set a bad example, etc etc. all the christians my age do is get a boyfriend/girlfriend and get married and settle down at the approximate age of 21! I dont want to do that! I want to go to uni, make heaps of friends and not worry about whether they will be a 'bad influence' or not, go out every weekend, plan spontaneous trips, not know whats around the corner, have a career, get married late etc!! I'm just sick of this predictable life in which the only thing I have to look forward to is heaven which is probably 80 or so years away and im getting depressed finding things that will help me pass the time that will not damage my faith! I dont know who to talk to because all the women in my church didnt become christians until their late 20's early 30s and they tell me stories of their younger years of when they went out partying travelling you name it and they rave on about how good it was but then they say "but im glad im a christian NOW"......far out....is there any older women here that survived their 20s as chrisitains?? what did you do? what did you look forward to? how did you spend your weekends? I need advice!!
Thanks
butterfly
Well I became a Christian when i was 16. I was so excited and the first year or two were so exciting and spirit-filled for me that I would not take a second look at the things of the world. When I turned 18 & with the pressure of the HSC I started going out a lot partying & I got off track with my faith. Now I'm almost 19 and im about to go to uni and I know God loves me and I have no doubt in my mind that he isnt real....but I just dont want to live as a christian. I know this is bad, ok. I have so much fun and I just love who I am and love life when I go out partying and I love the sponteneity and freedom of living as a "non-christian". When I come back to God I feel so sheltered and I cant go anywhere because there is nothing for people my age to do as Christians. everything is so restricted; every time I go out I have to be cautious that I dont drink too much, dont set a bad example, etc etc. all the christians my age do is get a boyfriend/girlfriend and get married and settle down at the approximate age of 21! I dont want to do that! I want to go to uni, make heaps of friends and not worry about whether they will be a 'bad influence' or not, go out every weekend, plan spontaneous trips, not know whats around the corner, have a career, get married late etc!! I'm just sick of this predictable life in which the only thing I have to look forward to is heaven which is probably 80 or so years away and im getting depressed finding things that will help me pass the time that will not damage my faith! I dont know who to talk to because all the women in my church didnt become christians until their late 20's early 30s and they tell me stories of their younger years of when they went out partying travelling you name it and they rave on about how good it was but then they say "but im glad im a christian NOW"......far out....is there any older women here that survived their 20s as chrisitains?? what did you do? what did you look forward to? how did you spend your weekends? I need advice!!
Thanks
butterfly