Guarding our hearts is a biblical principle. We must vette their character before bringing them to our bosom.
It is easier to make wise decisions than hope the one you’ve made won’t exploit you. Putting yourself at another’s mercy and hoping they’ll behave accordingly will bring hurt and disappointment. Few will set aside their agenda on our behalf.
It isn’t hard to find a leader. It’s difficult to follow when you want the reins. You’ll have a power struggle. If you want to be led and won’t surrender voluntarily, he must wrest the reins from your hands. That’s going to hurt.
I’ll share something I wrote that applies to your dilemma.
Occupying the feminine space isn't contingent on perfection. I can't move into his sphere. Where will he go? And who occupies the place I've left? I must remain where I'm meant.
A hallmark of that is gentleness and softness. Remaining in that state requires intention. No matter what happens between us; I can't move away. I have to respond in kind to handle his strength. Otherwise we're like hard stones cutting against the other. One will break. I'm the weaker of the pair. It will be me.
I'm a surrendered woman. I've lived it for years and date the sort you're looking for. If he has to bring you to that point it will be painful. It's a serious undertaking. You'll require one whose will exceeds your own.
You can bring a person to heel without breaking them. But the majority don't know how or reject that approach. They'll do a take down instead. The force of his person is what causes the pain. He doesn't coax you to the place of surrender. He crushes you.
Your strength may attract the wrong type. Many love the challenge of bringing a strong woman to her knees. You don't need a steely man. You need someone who leads with love and kindness.
Because of your empathy, you need leadership in a different guise. They're usually not overt. They don't roar. He possesses a quiet strength and he'll handle you gently. In that scenario, you'll relax and be able to let go.
When you crown a man king, you're talking about power. You've got to be careful who you put on the throne. They must be benevolent leaders yielded to God. Or you'll have a tyrant.
Yours in His Service,
~bella