There are so many factors that go into calling to ministry. I appreciate the question and I hope I have been able to help in some manner. Feel free to ask me anything on here or via PM. If you ever want to talk you can PM me your number or we could connect on Skype. I feel that part of my calling is to help new and aspiring ministers to become what God desires for them to be. It is a process and journey. When Jesus called the disciples to become fishers of men, they weren't instantly that. It was a process. When we allow God's process to work/play out in our lives, He is able to accomplish in and through us what He desires for us.
God bless
Rodney
Thank you for taking the time to answer this Pastor. I appreciate your insight.
After I found out about God, but before I became a Christian, I was involved in the new age movement. I thought for a long time that I was going to be some sort of teacher, or guru, because I felt like God had made me wise and I had something important to share. Of course, I was a fool, but the point being is that when I became a Christian, I realized that because of this delusion Satan would probably try to appeal to my pride and get me to believe that God would give me some kind of extraordinary job to do. I believe the logic being that if I tried to do something God hadn't directed me or gifted me to do, I would soon be leading a spiritually defeated life. So this is something I am being extremely cautious about.
In any case, as I started to grow as a Christian I would feel called at different times to be a pastor, but it always fleeting. Something here, or a sign there, but nothing consistent. In the last six months though people have started voluntarily telling me I would become a pastor. I hadn't told any of them about any of this, mind you. One person prophecied about it. One person who I barely knew was leaving the building after talking to me and came running back to tell me that the Lord told her I would be a great pastor. She was confused about why the Lord would reveal that to her but faithfully delivered the message. Another person told someone I knew after hearing me give my testimony that I would be a pastor. Yet another person told me I would be evangelizing in front of thousands of people. During this time I also had a couple of dreams where I was teaching, preaching and saving people.
Now, all the people who told me these things are Christians, but I don't necessarily trust any of their testimony. Most of them are strong Christians but I have also seen deception working in their lives as well. In any case, since I didn't really trust any of it, I stopped thinking about it.
The reason it's on my mind lately is now a Pastor has been telling me I am going to be preacher. He started mentioning it casually in front of everyone at the last service I was at. I asked him about it and I don't recall him saying that he had a word about it but he mentioned that I had a hunger for Gods word that he felt could lead me there, and that I should ask God whether this is what He wanted me to do. If it was He would start opening doors for me to do it.
So, that's why I inquired about it. I'm kind of confused and I'm not sure what I want to do. Confused because *someone* is trying to convince me of this and I am not sure if it is God or not. I know being a pastor is a very tough job but I would do it if the Lord wanted me to do it. I'm not really in the position of being a pastor, though, because I am not married. I would have to get married first, wouldn't I? Does a pastor need to have kids too?
As for your questions:
1. Are you approaching with a desire to serve or be served? Be honest with yourself about this one. It can be a real pitfall.
I don't really want to be served. I feel satisfied that God will provide everything I need. I think though there is an element of pride in me that wants to be recognized, but I think the true reason is because I want to help people get closer to God.
2. Are you willing to prove yourself faithful to God and to His people? Can you be faithful over the little so God can entrust you with much? This might mean scrubbing toilets, changing diapers in nursery, doing yard work and manual labor things around the church. Doing things with an attitude and willingness to serve God and the church.
Yes, I am willing to do drudge work if that is what is necessary. I think even sweeping floors is contributing something important.
3. What is you vision/idea of ministry?
I think the ideal vision of the church can be seen in Acts 4:32
All the believers were one in heart and mind. No one claimed that any of his possessions was his own, but they shared everything they had.
I'm not really sure how to put that into practice, but I think that this is what the church should look like, ideally. I am sure there are some ministries out there in the world that do resemble this, but it almost seems like a bizarre, or even cultish concept, in the western church. I think though straying away from this model is the biggest cause of unbelief in the world today. Why? Because Jesus said this:
John 13:35
By this all men will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.
So, it stands to reason that if we don't love one another, people won't know that we are His disciples. Well, I think that all of this division and denominationalism is the source of that confusion. The true church is the body of Christ, which is a supernatural body of believers with Christ as the head, not institutions made by men. When all nonbelievers see is the institution and the division and not the love then they won't know we're His disciples. Please note that I am not saying that denominations are all inherently evil, or something like that. I myself am a member of an AOG church. I am just saying that there were no denominations in the early church.
I think healing and deliverance are also essential to any ministry.
4. Are you teachable?
I grew up without any religion, and so after finding out there is a God, I also found out pretty quickly that everything I knew was in some way, wrong. It was astonishing to learn that this was even possible. Because of that I recognize the fallibility of my understanding, and that it's only because of the Lord that I know anything true at all. I am learning more and more just how little I actually know, and how far away I am from measuring up to Gods standards. So, I feel that I am teachable, although I can be slow of learning and stubborn in my own ways.