A little over a week ago i got held hostage against my will for about eleven hours by four people -- one male (the main perpetrator) and three females who acted as his accomplices. During this time the male in question repeatedly "mind-raped" me, meaning, he shouted, hollered and screamed abusively (berating, barraging, haranguing, continually hostile and confrontational, trying to order me around like a dog, no words can describe how perfectly horrid the whole thing was) causing mental and emotional anguish and trauma. Spent nearly the entire time there fearing for my life because of stories previously read or heard concerning such scenarios, but thankfully it did not come to physical blows, strangulation, suffocation, or any other type of GBH.
About 2 hours before they let me go they forced me, against my will, to sign a document stating i'd consented to this and i would not hold them responsible, etc. i didnt want to sign but i feared they would never let me go unless or until i did.
Should i go to the police about this? they lured me on false pretenses and took me across state lines without asking me first whether i wanted to travel that far or not. But i'm embarrassed to talk to the police because of the details of the situation. it would be so easy to tell the police these were insane, idiotic, crazed superstitious fanatics who believed that by holding me hostage, screaming at me for hours, and thereby subjecting me to repeated mental and emotional anguish and trauma (including babbling nonsense sounds loudly in my face and trying to force me to cough and/or vomit) they could "cast out demons". because that's what they apparently thought they were accomplishing, believe it or not.
unfortunately, then i would also have to admit that the reason i even went to meet them at all in the first place had been to get acquainted with their understanding, beliefs, methods and approaches to such matters, in order to see if they would be safe to trust in that capacity (as people to pray for me for spiritual problems of this unpleasant nature). apparently they decided i should have no say in such a matter and unfortunately rather than doing me any good at all they did grave harm to the point where i want nothing to do with God or Christianity any more for the rest of my life and if that means dying in this condition so be it. in other words, they proved decidedly incompetent and hideously unsafe. in fact, you could not have put together a more idiotic situation if you had deliberately hand-picked the worst of the worst and instructed them to enact every last stupid, wrong, damaging, hurtful, insane, idiotic and archaic notion about such things floating around out there in the detritus of the internet's spiritual sewers.
be that as it may, my own sanity (and thus credibility) will likely be called into question as well, as they will likely claim i solicited their "help". quite the opposite in fact, i repeatedly told them i didn't want it and when this horrible warty little toad of a man demanded to know why i'd sent so many "desperate sounding" emails to my friend asking for prayer, etc. i told him i did want and need spiritual help -- but not from the likes of him!! but there's no avoiding the damage thinking oneself in need of that type of ministry at all will do to one's credibility, especially in a secular milieu in one of the wealthier and more sophisticated counties in the nation.
so the real question is whether there's a way to go to the police about this to ensure that i will not, like a rape victim, get ripped to shreds on the witness stand. i was the victim here, and there's no excuse for getting treated that way for pursuing your rightful justice, but we all know it happens. i just know i won't survive something like that after everything i've been through. and it does not help that as a result of this incident i'm currently in the process of what they call "deconverting" and would just rather distance myself from the whole sorry mess at this point rather than get stuck having to explain a POV i'm leaving behind and why my perspective on life is as different now as day from night, on top of it all.
advice would be welcome, but i don't trust people when they try to "get inside" or get too close anymore, so please, for both our sakes, don't try to go there, especially if you don't know me IRL. thanks.
p.s. if you have discussed this situation with me on another board or through another medium already, don't feel obligated to respond. i'm looking for diverse input from a wide variety of folk and trying to make up my mind before it's too late to do anything about this.
About 2 hours before they let me go they forced me, against my will, to sign a document stating i'd consented to this and i would not hold them responsible, etc. i didnt want to sign but i feared they would never let me go unless or until i did.
Should i go to the police about this? they lured me on false pretenses and took me across state lines without asking me first whether i wanted to travel that far or not. But i'm embarrassed to talk to the police because of the details of the situation. it would be so easy to tell the police these were insane, idiotic, crazed superstitious fanatics who believed that by holding me hostage, screaming at me for hours, and thereby subjecting me to repeated mental and emotional anguish and trauma (including babbling nonsense sounds loudly in my face and trying to force me to cough and/or vomit) they could "cast out demons". because that's what they apparently thought they were accomplishing, believe it or not.
unfortunately, then i would also have to admit that the reason i even went to meet them at all in the first place had been to get acquainted with their understanding, beliefs, methods and approaches to such matters, in order to see if they would be safe to trust in that capacity (as people to pray for me for spiritual problems of this unpleasant nature). apparently they decided i should have no say in such a matter and unfortunately rather than doing me any good at all they did grave harm to the point where i want nothing to do with God or Christianity any more for the rest of my life and if that means dying in this condition so be it. in other words, they proved decidedly incompetent and hideously unsafe. in fact, you could not have put together a more idiotic situation if you had deliberately hand-picked the worst of the worst and instructed them to enact every last stupid, wrong, damaging, hurtful, insane, idiotic and archaic notion about such things floating around out there in the detritus of the internet's spiritual sewers.
be that as it may, my own sanity (and thus credibility) will likely be called into question as well, as they will likely claim i solicited their "help". quite the opposite in fact, i repeatedly told them i didn't want it and when this horrible warty little toad of a man demanded to know why i'd sent so many "desperate sounding" emails to my friend asking for prayer, etc. i told him i did want and need spiritual help -- but not from the likes of him!! but there's no avoiding the damage thinking oneself in need of that type of ministry at all will do to one's credibility, especially in a secular milieu in one of the wealthier and more sophisticated counties in the nation.
so the real question is whether there's a way to go to the police about this to ensure that i will not, like a rape victim, get ripped to shreds on the witness stand. i was the victim here, and there's no excuse for getting treated that way for pursuing your rightful justice, but we all know it happens. i just know i won't survive something like that after everything i've been through. and it does not help that as a result of this incident i'm currently in the process of what they call "deconverting" and would just rather distance myself from the whole sorry mess at this point rather than get stuck having to explain a POV i'm leaving behind and why my perspective on life is as different now as day from night, on top of it all.
advice would be welcome, but i don't trust people when they try to "get inside" or get too close anymore, so please, for both our sakes, don't try to go there, especially if you don't know me IRL. thanks.
p.s. if you have discussed this situation with me on another board or through another medium already, don't feel obligated to respond. i'm looking for diverse input from a wide variety of folk and trying to make up my mind before it's too late to do anything about this.
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