Three Years Ago in August, I would have been with the Mother of my Child Today. She left me though, moved out and withdrew from our cuddling, kissing, Romance, and Our Love Making.
We Were Fine, incredibly fine the first two months, she Told me about how she did things with Two Guys and Once when we were getting drunk and a friends house.
It didn't bother me then, but next morning it did. I have a real problem with alchohol, When I drink it, I get mean and aggressive. . . I want more and More. . .I have terrible Hangover Panic Attacks. A lot of distress after drinking, and they can last for a few days.
I feel panic in my life without her, but when she was here I was so mean to her. I didn't appreciate what I had from her. Anyways, I cheated on her and she stayed. I got her drunk and Took advantage of her for my own sexual pleasures and she stayed, I even laid my hands on her out of fits of rage, She still stayed. . . but withdrew, then I did it again out of anger and she decided to move out. She left me the apartment and the Car and Everything We have gotten. I miss her so much, but I feel like they are gone for good. I'd neglect her and ignore her. I miss her so much. PLease pray for me to either move on or help her find her way back home. I know what I did wasn't right but I do love her with all my heart and I need her in my life.
Pray that my anxiety goes away.
We Were Fine, incredibly fine the first two months, she Told me about how she did things with Two Guys and Once when we were getting drunk and a friends house.
It didn't bother me then, but next morning it did. I have a real problem with alchohol, When I drink it, I get mean and aggressive. . . I want more and More. . .I have terrible Hangover Panic Attacks. A lot of distress after drinking, and they can last for a few days.
I feel panic in my life without her, but when she was here I was so mean to her. I didn't appreciate what I had from her. Anyways, I cheated on her and she stayed. I got her drunk and Took advantage of her for my own sexual pleasures and she stayed, I even laid my hands on her out of fits of rage, She still stayed. . . but withdrew, then I did it again out of anger and she decided to move out. She left me the apartment and the Car and Everything We have gotten. I miss her so much, but I feel like they are gone for good. I'd neglect her and ignore her. I miss her so much. PLease pray for me to either move on or help her find her way back home. I know what I did wasn't right but I do love her with all my heart and I need her in my life.
Pray that my anxiety goes away.
