what are you feeling right now? (23)

[Poster0]

I've been asleep but woke up. It is a mental clarity that is the problem not so much a restless mind. When I get that then I can't get to sleep but that is not what the problem is. I wake up and can't get back to sleep.

Meditation helps heaps. I do that a lot. I also really believe in being mindful - take stock of what goes on within our inner being. When the going gets tough the weak succumb unless the strong look after the weak and build them stronger. The best is not to let it upset you, no matter how tiring it gets.

Despite my sleeping problem I still get 6+ hours a day on average, if I manage my insomnia like this then things should stay reasonable. The problem starts when my daily sleep drops below 5 hours a day, once I got on average 3 hours a day - it took 14 months but I did go psychotic in a bad way after that.

Sleep is important, i agree.

 

[LoyalToGod]

Thank you everyone for forgiving me! I went to the psychosocial clubhouse today and it was a great thing to be back after a huge period of absence.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

You must be talking about a website i guess. How does that work?

Actually, making a reference to tabletop games such as Dungeons and Dragons. Characters get certain stats in the games, like charisma or other things. My friend and I jokingly make references to it irl because that's how we handle our lives. Every year we survive, we "level up" (age), when we take our medication, it's "SP" or "HP" (hit points or special points", and finishing off a bottle and needing a refill, we level up the HP and SP. And what I was talking about is a skill set and wishing I could have gotten charisma so I wouldn't so be so bad with in real life. None of this is probably making sense, is it?

I know how you feel.

Today I feel like I have done to man Aspergian things, and I might have annoyed some people, if they didn't annoy me. But I don't want to just explain myself away because I'll bet a fourth of them have Asperger's, too, including this blind girl who's become like my new best friend (I think it's 50/50, though).

Right now I'm in my dorm room alone, and as much as I'd love to interact some more I just don't know how I'd go about doing it. Everyone's schedules are different and they might not want to hear me talk forever and ever.

I'm surprised you even understood what I was saying lol, re-reading my post, I don't even understand.

Right? I'm the opposite, I like hearing people talk and don't like talking myself, because I don't know how to contribute unless we're talking anime, books or history, sometimes music and deep things. Everything else, you've lost me.

 

[Poster0]

Actually, making a reference to tabletop games such as Dungeons and Dragons. Characters get certain stats in the games, like charisma or other things. My friend and I jokingly make references to it irl because that's how we handle our lives. Every year we survive, we "level up" (age), when we take our medication, it's "SP" or "HP" (hit points or special points", and finishing off a bottle and needing a refill, we level up the HP and SP. And what I was talking about is a skill set and wishing I could have gotten charisma so I wouldn't so be so bad with in real life. None of this is probably making sense, is it?



I'm surprised you even understood what I was saying lol, re-reading my post, I don't even understand.

Right? I'm the opposite, I like hearing people talk and don't like talking myself, because I don't know how to contribute unless we're talking anime, books or history, sometimes music and deep things. Everything else, you've lost me.

Yes it makes sense. I played DnD when i was young, and use to play video games too. Thanks for explaining, i understand now.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

A little sad.

 

[Poster0]

A little sad.

Why you sad?

 

[chaoticfirefly]

Why you sad?

My co-worker is an awful person who is always in a bad mood. She's nice to everyone else, but me. She always glares at me or something. I don't even know what I did. She's nice to everyone else though.

The other day, she said that I was lucky to have uterine cancer (most of the women who work at my store gossip and it's so awful, we're all adults there and yet, I feel like I'm back in high school) because that means I can't have any kids, solely because she hates her own children. This woman is so bitter and angry.

 

[Poster0]

My co-worker is an awful person who is always in a bad mood. She's nice to everyone else, but me. She always glares at me or something. I don't even know what I did. She's nice to everyone else though.

The other day, she said that I was lucky to have uterine cancer (most of the women who work at my store gossip and it's so awful, we're all adults there and yet, I feel like I'm back in high school) because that means I can't have any kids, solely because she hates her own children. This woman is so bitter and angry.

Im not to good at doing this this all the time myself, but i know its true. Be nice to her, and be happy as well, that will either melt her cold heart and cause her to like you back, or it will cause her own hatred to hurt her instead of you.

 

[Krissy Cakes]

Sick with the flu.

 

[Jeshu]

Sick with the flu.

I hope you will soon recover and that you don't feel too offish

 

[chaoticfirefly]

Exhausted. I keep having nightmares about my missing cat.

 

[Poster0]

Exhausted. I keep having nightmares about my missing cat.

Nightmares can be difficult.

 

[grandvizier1006]

I'm starting to wonder if I have GAD, but I'm not certain.

 

[BlessedMommy05]

Every time you post I see toughness. You just keep going no matter what. You encourage me because I don't have the tenacity you do. There are so many times I just want to say: "___ this.", but then I see folks like you and I realize that maybe I don't have it as bad as I think I do.

Press On

LOL Thank You for the encouragement, I do try honestly we all have our battles and honestly yes I do feel like you where I want to say (_) this and walk away. But again I learn to things in life doesn't always go way we wish it to and honestly its hard to keep the faith and wait for the 2nd shoe to drop at same time it does get exhausting.

Well update our washer is now toast. The one part we it does need cost a bit of $ and the other part is well, lets say out of date, doesn't make it any more. Soon which means washer shopping time.. I hope soon, went today to the laundry mat to do a ton of washing that includes bed, cloths, towels, kitchen towels, ect.. Get the idea. Took 2.5hrs get it done but now we got clean stuff again . Yay! My stomach feels some better, but I do need to remember to eat a bit more often the meds I take make me hungry the AM ones and I feel sick if I don't eat some thing so need remember that. I see my Dr next week so hope to bring up few issues with her. Last 2 weekends been so busy cleaning things up and rearranging things so I been so busy and then wound up where I cant sleep at night due to being on the go all day. Oi !

Anyways prayers and hugz around I check in when I can.

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling very tired and unmotivated today, and the time is going super slow, I hope tomorrow will be better.

I hope all of you have a blessed week

 

[chaoticfirefly]

Nightmares can be difficult.

Indeed.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

meh. i played video games all night and found i can't focus on ac4 very well, and i haven't gotten very far, despite owning it for two years. it's the same with all of my other favorite games. used to be i could sit there for hours and beat the entire thing in one sitting, and now, i can barely sit still for more than ten minutes at a time before wanting to do something else. i guess i just need an immersive game that has a different story line than the same old tropes thrown together. i liked assassin's creed (and then the ending of ac3 happened) because it felt different, i like characters who are morally ambiguous, who are close to jumping off the slippery slope, i like it when characters have conflicted feelings about what they're doing, the "by any means necessary." and that's just not a very popular thing.

 

[MissRowy]

Feeling a bit low right now. My emotional mind is telling me I'm useless and im stupid. I almost self harmed but my partner stopped me.

 

[grandvizier1006]

I need some more prayers. For some reason I got it into my heads at night that Christianity is dying and that more and more people are leaving the church--and somehow, that means me as well. I have to just get it in my head that these fellow Christians are my friends and that they won't leave me and Jesus will not let them be snatched away. And that includes me.

 

[Tempura]

I need some more prayers. For some reason I got it into my heads at night that Christianity is dying and that more and more people are leaving the church--and somehow, that means me as well. I have to just get it in my head that these fellow Christians are my friends and that they won't leave me and Jesus will not let them be snatched away. And that includes me.

Not everyone who leaves a church leaves Christ. And if they do, they always have a chance to come back to Him. God will seek out the missing lambs and call for them.