reflections

Where to begin?
Well first off I'm not going to suggest, let alone push for that person to to try the business of someone. I just don't want to deal with it , with them, especially in an area like that...
They have a degree in business, are an instructor in some college, are in some pre-med program, and doing ministry counseling on the side. Whoop de doo..
So they think they know, and have attitudes about it...
It's not that I'm jealous or anything, but I'm not impressed either (not that they would want me to be)
This says a lot where this is going... lol

ROFL We all have our own things, but for me- It's a bad "sign" when the first thing someone says instead of "hi or how's it going"... when the first thing they say to me is , "I thought we said 6".
...and I was overjoyed that I was only 10m behind...look it comes out later that though when we had talked someone else was supposed to be coming with- they didn't so that saved probably about 30m-45m right there...and I didn't say anything to them when they didn't take an exit they were supposed to and kept going, so that they had to double back (which took about 30 extra min or so...)
So come on people lighten up, relax, breathe, have some mercy...


Should I get into all the little details?
Let's just say, things were not rolling along.
It didn't help that my hubby forgot to leave the car seat for me. So that took time while I searched for it while I couldn't reach him by phone. I found our old one and was going to use that. I was trying to put it the car but since I never do it any other time (leave that one to others) I was struggling a bit, while she was getting impatient . But thing thing was, then after about 10m she mentions something about using her sisters car seat that was right near by. Why didn't they mention that right away? Um I take it I wasn't the only one being dense here...

I had been thinking, and had mentioned to them before on the phone- "Even though it's a long drive we have many yrs and such to catch up on." lol yea right in like 10hrs of driving we talked for a total of about 15m - and not all at one time :doh:.
So it was mostly silence except for me and my child talking. I wouldn't say it was awkward or uncomfortable like strangers, like we didn't know each other- but more sad or like something was wrong, off- in the air. Then the whole time they only played music from the place I don't like, and then like the last hr 1/2 the played teaching stuff by the very person I can't stand (and someone else who said not right things).
Then at a few points they did talk- but on the phone to various friends: talking about things of the Spirit, giving prophetic words.

They didn't ask me anything about my life, where my husband is working, where we're going to church, what my kids are up to, what God's put on my heart etc.- nothing. And when, I tried to start converstion and tried to keep it going by asking questions, or following up on something they said- they just gave me like 3 word answers and didn't expound on anything etc...And since now that they are Charismatic, we should have more in common and to talk about, ha.
They didn't give me any words or anything.
didn't ask or when I tried to mention something spiritual I felt a resistance in the air....

Horrible that's how I describe the experience for me, just horrible.

Even though I couldn't stand the teaching being played in the car, and I was praying about it. I didn't say anything. I just gritted my teeth.
I really do think since we both have similar gifts (although i think they also have a different one from me- administration or teaching. Which, usually causes some sparks between me & a person w those gifts)
we should be able to get along, understand, & especially communicate better.
So I do think the problem is, there is something there in the Spirit, a clash because of our postitions over this church & their teachings.
I wonder too if any of it is a touch of bitterness on her part for something in the past, like maybe I didn't try to get in touch with her enough, like call her back enough?
But, they didn't exactly make that much an effort themselves.

I mean when we both were as we were, and even now like each has the same idea\heart for, would like to get a building for the purpose of helping orphans, people in need... And we can't even talk about that- sad just sad...
Something is definately wrong

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