Another day has gone by and a new one starting. I'm very tired as I just don't sleep. Too much thinking I think haha.
I worry about my children. One a druid and living according to the old religions of the Celts where our heritage comes from in Ireland another living with a woman and taking up a gay lifestyle and both are so hateful when it comes to God. I pray for them try to love them through this and cry when I hear their hate. Not only towards me but my God.
I don't have a car and have to rely on my daughter to take me to get groceries and the other day I was sick and had to ask her to help I gave her ten for gas she came after work and was tired I felt bad over that I knew she was tired but I was bad sick. Before she got back home she posted on FB that she was sick of the leeches in her life bleeding her dry. My name was not posted on it but I knew who that was for. Just like I knew when she took my favorite scripture and turned it into this I can do all things through Chris who loves me. I almost lost it over that one. And talking about the ancient people who were stupid and dumb writing a book and anyone stupid enough to believe them. Those people created writing. Those people created the wheel and were the foundations for what we have today. Some of the things they left to us show very a very future minded people. I think they were inspired by the Holy Spirit to write so I revere every word. It saddens me to no end. How she is acting. She knows I can't walk. She knows I don't have a car to do thing for myself oh God how I wish I just had a car to take care of my own business so much would be solved. She said everytime she thinks of me she thinks of the night mare of having to take me to wal mart. It makes me beyond sad. I'm fifty eight and I am so sad because I tried my best to teach her right I didn't have the chance with my son his dad had him. But I gave my all to my daughter. She's only seven miles away from me and it feels like a thousand. I should never have moved back here but now I have and I am stuck. God has a reason for all this. God must have a reason for me not having a car of some kind. I keep on praying. I'm that squeaky wheel I know! I love You Lord and thank You for giving me another day to live and breathe and have my being. forgive me and help me. I love You with all my heart. Your child.
I worry about my children. One a druid and living according to the old religions of the Celts where our heritage comes from in Ireland another living with a woman and taking up a gay lifestyle and both are so hateful when it comes to God. I pray for them try to love them through this and cry when I hear their hate. Not only towards me but my God.
I don't have a car and have to rely on my daughter to take me to get groceries and the other day I was sick and had to ask her to help I gave her ten for gas she came after work and was tired I felt bad over that I knew she was tired but I was bad sick. Before she got back home she posted on FB that she was sick of the leeches in her life bleeding her dry. My name was not posted on it but I knew who that was for. Just like I knew when she took my favorite scripture and turned it into this I can do all things through Chris who loves me. I almost lost it over that one. And talking about the ancient people who were stupid and dumb writing a book and anyone stupid enough to believe them. Those people created writing. Those people created the wheel and were the foundations for what we have today. Some of the things they left to us show very a very future minded people. I think they were inspired by the Holy Spirit to write so I revere every word. It saddens me to no end. How she is acting. She knows I can't walk. She knows I don't have a car to do thing for myself oh God how I wish I just had a car to take care of my own business so much would be solved. She said everytime she thinks of me she thinks of the night mare of having to take me to wal mart. It makes me beyond sad. I'm fifty eight and I am so sad because I tried my best to teach her right I didn't have the chance with my son his dad had him. But I gave my all to my daughter. She's only seven miles away from me and it feels like a thousand. I should never have moved back here but now I have and I am stuck. God has a reason for all this. God must have a reason for me not having a car of some kind. I keep on praying. I'm that squeaky wheel I know! I love You Lord and thank You for giving me another day to live and breathe and have my being. forgive me and help me. I love You with all my heart. Your child.
