Okay. I have some crazy things to talk about. Thank you for your time, you are very kind and appreciated. I pray God blesses you a lot for caring and listening.
I was mistreated a lot when I was younger. I never thought anyone loved me. When I started going to school I was full of shame and everyone hated me. My first grade teacher told me to look in the mirror and tell myself I was ugly. My third grade teacher told me I was stupid in front of the whole class. I was mistreated a lot. No one did anything about it. I acted up at elementary school, and I think what my teachers did encouraged me being that way. But I was mistreated and no one did anything about it. No one asked questions like, is she okay. Everyone always hated me. So it was very hard. I didn't know anyone who loved me at all. It was horrible. Then when I was 15, this guy took advantage of me. So I learned that I could get someone to pay attention to me by sleeping around. I didn't even know what I was doing, or what was happening to me, or what it was even called. I was like that until I got saved at 23. I stopped that, and drugs, and going to clubs. I started going to church. But right before I got saved (a few years), I got involved with someone who was really evil. Someone I thought cared. I found out it was the devil himself, and was only nice to me to get me to sell my soul and be evil. He said a lot of things to me, he said he cared, he seduced me into thinking he loved me. I listened to everything the enemy said to me, he said he cared about me a lot. I got saved when I was 23 though, and I found out in recent years that he had been persecuting me for getting saved. He did many different things to me all at once. I was persecuted the whole time I have been a Christian. At least 22 years now. It has been very difficult. I haven't ever really talked about it to anyone because I was full of shame about it and thought no one would understand or believe it. I have healed considerably and love people now, because of Jesus. I now have decided to be real about it and talk to others about it. I just want to be right with the Lord. Also, the enemy asked me to sell my soul in 2015. I said no, and ever since then, the persecution has been way worse. I think the enemy started persecuting me when I became Christian, and knew they were going to ask me to sell my soul in 2015 and persecuted me for a while also before they planned to ask me to do that, so they would perhaps have an easier time trying to get me to sell my soul. I have been abused so bad, and I have healed a lot, and I'm glad it happened because of Jesus. I just need to talk about it because it's a really crazy story and I need other Christians to care and I need to be right with God. I could say more, if it's okay with you. I realize that maybe it won't sound true, but that's okay, I need to talk about it and get free from it. If you are okay with me sharing more crazy things, I will, but you don't have to listen to more, if you don't want.
