I would like some prayer, advice, and help with how to deal with my current situation. A little background first: My wife and I are soulmates. I made a very specific list of who I wanted in a spouse actually thinking I would never find someone who met all of my extremely picky criteria, and God brought my wife into my life. We actually had met years before, but never realized it until after we started dating. Needless to say, I knew that I was going to marry her after our first lunch date which lasted over 3hrs because it felt like we had known each other our whole lives. Unfortunately, we didn't live a Christian lifestyle and had let sin into our lives. We have been married since 1/11/2008, and I discovered my wife was having an affair this July. At first I was devastated and wanted a divorce, but quickly realized that God hates divorce and we decided to put all of our effort into saving our marriage. On Nov. 6th, my wife let me know via text that she had gone out and slept with another guy 12 days after I found out about the first affair. She moved out and continues to say that I need to plan on a life without her, and talks about how she is thankful for the time we had together and now it is time to focus on making ourselves happy. She has also eluded to our marriage ending through a song that she stated reminds her of us and our relationship. I finally for the first time in my life, committed my entire life to the Lord on Nov. 10, 2015. I have removed all of the sinful movies, music, and anything else that was causing me to sin from my home. I have been praying to God for over 2hrs a day every day and finally doing everything that he asks me to do. I was able to talk my wife into not filing for divorce yet, and instead to wait until we both get our lives right with God first, then, and only then could we go before him and he would lead, guide and direct us whether or not we should divorce. We don't have any human children. We tried conceiving, even went to fertility specialists who admitted they had never seen a case like ours because every month there was some different issue that was preventing us from getting pregnant. We do have 3 elderly dogs(8.5, 13, 13) who miss their mother. I know that God brought us together, and I also know that God doesn't make plans that fail. What I am struggling with is her saying some things like the fact that we are soul mates and she will never find anyone who makes her happy like I did, that she wants to turn back to God, she isn't interested in finding someone else to statements like she knows that she is sinning and will continue to actively sin because she isn't ready to give it up, that she might sleep around with a whole lot of other guys before she is ready to be with me again, to I need to plan on a life without her. I know that satan has his hooks into her and I can see the pain in her eyes in the 2 times she has allowed me to see her, but I just don't know what to do besides pray. I am praying not only for her to turn back to God, because her salvation is more important to me than us ever being together again, and I am also praying and believing that God will restore our marriage. She moved in with another younger girl(20, my wife will be 28 next week) who isn't saved and smokes weed every day. I have done a LOT of reading. I have sent her an email admitting to my failures in our marriage of not cherishing her like I promised, and several other things that I did to drive her away. I never physically or emotionally harmed her, although she would constantly degrade me through her words. I would just like advice or help or anything from anyone out there who has maybe been through something similar or can give me some prayer and advice. I still love her. I have forgiven her. I miss her. I know that God can do miracles, and that is what I am praying for.
