Please help

kurayami said:

Things have been a mess for me. My depression has been bad, my PTSD is making my life rather intolerable. But I've been in some sort of quasi-recovery. But today, I started purging again.

What should I do?

Halp?

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it is imperative that you get good, competent medical help - do yoga exercises and eat well



and always keep smiling

First of all, it's not easy to keep smiling when you have depression and PTSD like the OP mentioned in their post. Instead, see a therapist who can help you so you don't have to live like this. You deserve to be happy. I do agree with doing yoga though. It does help with relaxation and helps to promote a positive body image. But most importantly, see a therapist!

kurayami said:

Things have been a mess for me. My depression has been bad, my PTSD is making my life rather intolerable. But I've been in some sort of quasi-recovery. But today, I started purging again.

What should I do?

Halp?

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Hello! I will pray for you! You need to ask a psychiatrist and he help you.

It isn't always so easy to just "go see a therapist"; I know this very well.

My suggestion is to sit somewhere quiet, imagine yourself in a place that relaxes you (I like to imagine being near a waterfall), and see Jesus there with you. Talk to Him, for He cares. Hold Him, for He loves you. Cry and let Him comfort you.

Then stand up and promise yourself you won't purge. One step at a time, lean on the strength of Christ. If you cannot do it, let Him do it for you. In recovery, and sometimes through the rest of our lives, we will falter, we will stumble, we will fall in regards to the thing we are recovering from. That's ok as long as we pick ourselves up and start again.

You don't have to do it alone, because Jesus' strength is indeed made perfect in our weaknesses.

I can't advise on medicine; but in terms of the Scriptures, John 14.1-27 and Psalm 46 are very strengthening and comforting passages.

Hope you are doing better these days.

kurayami said:

It's up and down, but I was really unwell last year, and had a stint in hospital. I'm mostly better, but my eating disorder is flairing up. It's always something!

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I think we all need to remember about the whole person; medical help and advice, yes, vitally so! but also balanced diet and fitness but especially reading God's Word and prayer every day. In fact, an interest in reading God's Word daily and in prayer I would see as fundamental to fellowship with other Christians, because as we read the Bible prayerfully and walk in the light we are really admitting 'truly our fellowship is with the Father and with His Son Jesus Christ' (1 John 1).

Never mind.

kurayami said:

Things have been pretty bad lately. I'm only eating <staff edit> and fasting some days as well.

I know I'm putting the eating disorder before God, but I don't feel like I have any choice.

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I don't know anything about your eating disorder,but I know in my struggle with purging, restricting like this would set me up for binging/purging. The ONLY thing I have ever done that has helped me to quit purging was to quit restricting. I had to go through a phase of radical not-giving-a-fudge about my body size and trusting that the only thing that would make me alright was trusting that God would give me peace if I gave it up. He did give me peace-- well, more peace than I had when my life was ruled by keeping below x weight and feeling "empty" of food... but I lose that peace immediately if I don't keep connected to Him in prayer and if I let myself slide back into restricting my food.

You say you know you're putting the eating disorder before God and you don't feel like you have any choice. The ED thinking wants to keep you alone and separate from others and from God. Do you know the serenity prayer? You may not be able to control your emotions, but there are other things you can control. You can reach out. You can set some small recovery goals. You can do one thing different tomorrow. You can go to a support group like OA (they have anorexic/bulimic meetings). Post here. Talk to people who have been through this before and read stories of people who've come through it-- there are so many inspiring blogs and stories online! Pray for yourself, pray for others, and ask for prayers. Try to make one healthy meal. More if you feel like it. In short, you've got to surround yourself with love and inspiration to get back up.

Purging (and restricting) is terribly addictive. The further you let yourself go into it, the harder it is to drag yourself out. The time to act is now. If you have a therapist, double down on your appointments. Pray, pray, pray. I know it can feel like you're not worthy of God, that you've abandoned Him for this ED-- but you are worthy! God forgives you, He has always loved you, and He's still waiting for you. We all struggle in this life, and God knows it and forgives it when we come to Him. You aren't alone. I am happy you were doing better before, remember you can do it again! This stuff ebbs and flows, as I'm sure you know. Purging once is not the end, but you've got to be vigilant.

I had a wise therapist once tell me that recovery is like a pendulum swinging wildly back and forth. The goal is to get it to slow down and come closer to center. It doesn't necessarily stop swinging, because this is life, but what was once finding your head in a toilet can become something a little more manageable after a while. It is always something, sometimes it's like playing whack-a-mole when you have these problems. I know; I'm still struggling with some of my own issues. I'm just getting back up a little faster these days. Praying for you! Keep us updated on how you're doing.

I have an eating disorder am trying to eat some what normally without purging ...its gotten to the point where my husband has to drag me out the bathroom to stop me purging
I have a friend of mine who is a minster and has an eating disorder you wouldnt think that a minster would be dealing with that but they are people after all
Am going to over eaters anonymous with him next week
i know its overeaters but they also help people who are struggling with an eating disorder
maybe give that a try it could really help you
one thing i want to say to you is that no matter what weight you are Jesus loves you for you ... i hope things get better for you
praying for you

kurayami said:

Things have been a mess for me. My depression has been bad, my PTSD is making my life rather intolerable. But I've been in some sort of quasi-recovery. But today, I started purging again.

What should I do?

Halp?

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I just want to encourage you with this scripture
Isaiah 40:27-31 International Children’s Bible (ICB) said:
27 People of Jacob, why do you complain? People of Israel, why do you say, “The Lord does not see what happens to me. He does not care if I am treated fairly”? 28 Surely you know. Surely you have heard. The Lord is the God who lives forever. He created all the world. He does not become tired or need to rest. No one can understand how great his wisdom is. 29 The Lord gives strength to those who are tired. He gives more power to those who are weak. 30 Even boys become tired and need to rest. Even young men trip and fall. 31 But the people who trust the Lord will become strong again. They will be able to rise up as an eagle in the sky. They will run without needing rest. They will walk without becoming tired.

Trust God an do Good, will benefit you.

Dear OP i dont have an eating disorder but recognise a few of my friends do.

But i notice in your post you write 'my depression' 'my ptsd' 'my eating disorder' well the truth is it isnt really yours!

Its an affliction that is not meant to be part of your identity in Christ.

I know cos I used to suffer terribly from bipolar disorder. But it was never part of my identity and i needed to resist thinking it was so. If i think 'my bipolar disorder' i am thinking wrong just as if someone says 'my cancer' like its a pet.

What you do is tell it to get lost, the unclean spirits are driving it. In my case it was demons of fear. When you recognise this the demons have to leave cos you have authority in Christ if you are a believer. In stead of 'my .....place affliction here...' you declare you belong to 'my lord and saviour Jesus Christ'


This is a spiritual battle and Jesus has already won for you. He had nothing to eat on the cross yet, he rose again from the dead. Look to Him.

Goodbook said:

Dear OP i dont have an eating disorder but recognise a few of my friends do.

But i notice in your post you write 'my depression' 'my ptsd' 'my eating disorder' well the truth is it isnt really yours!

Its an affliction that is not meant to be part of your identity in Christ.

I know cos I used to suffer terribly from bipolar disorder. But it was never part of my identity and i needed to resist thinking it was so. If i think 'my bipolar disorder' i am thinking wrong just as if someone says 'my cancer' like its a pet.

What you do is tell it to get lost, the unclean spirits are driving it. In my case it was demons of fear. When you recognise this the demons have to leave cos you have authority in Christ if you are a believer. In stead of 'my .....place affliction here...' you declare you belong to 'my lord and saviour Jesus Christ'


This is a spiritual battle and Jesus has already won for you. He had nothing to eat on the cross yet, he rose again from the dead. Look to Him.

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Probably a demon. I have seen this before and it's the only reasonable explanation. Doctors, head shrinkers, and diets won't do any good until the demon is cast out.