I am only 15, but I have a strong calling to be an international missionary. It's killing me to sit here in my house while there's a whole world that needs Jesus. My mom wants to send me to public school this fall and I really don't want to. After my mission trip to Nicaragua this March, I've seen how my friends who went that go to public school have shifted back into their normal thinking. Of course they still want to go back, but then there's schoolwork. Always schoolwork. I never want to have that mindset. Ever. They don't really do much but unintentionally discourage me when I am hopeful of another trip before next March. My mom tells me I need to focus on my studies. And I know I do, but I also know that just because there is school, doesn't mean I can't travel and serve too. She says it's impractical. And then of course, people bring up college. I wrote this out on a piece of paper to get out my frustrations:
What kind of family was I born into that you're expected to go to college? Why was I born into a family that puts so much emphasis on higher education? Why was I born into a society that puts so much emphasis on higher education? I know my calling! I know I am one of God's future missionaries! Why can't I just go now, why do I have to be 15? I've seen the need and the hurt, I don't have time to sit around and get a degree in sciences! I don't want to go to college. I want to go to the nations, to the ends of the earth. They tell me it's impractical. You know what's impractical? Sitting unemployed in your huge houses even with those shiny-framed diplomas on your walls, while there's a dying world out there that only has so much time left to hear the gospel. That's what is impractical, ignoring the call that all of us are given, because you'be been trained in other areas. I will literally homeschool myself in another country if I have to. I'm not about to put getting a degree before what God has called me to do.
Please be completely honest with me. Am I being ridiculous? I am purely frustrated that I can't be out serving right now, even though I know God wants me here, at this time, for a reason. Any encouragement or advice is welcome. Thank you for your time!
What kind of family was I born into that you're expected to go to college? Why was I born into a family that puts so much emphasis on higher education? Why was I born into a society that puts so much emphasis on higher education? I know my calling! I know I am one of God's future missionaries! Why can't I just go now, why do I have to be 15? I've seen the need and the hurt, I don't have time to sit around and get a degree in sciences! I don't want to go to college. I want to go to the nations, to the ends of the earth. They tell me it's impractical. You know what's impractical? Sitting unemployed in your huge houses even with those shiny-framed diplomas on your walls, while there's a dying world out there that only has so much time left to hear the gospel. That's what is impractical, ignoring the call that all of us are given, because you'be been trained in other areas. I will literally homeschool myself in another country if I have to. I'm not about to put getting a degree before what God has called me to do.
Please be completely honest with me. Am I being ridiculous? I am purely frustrated that I can't be out serving right now, even though I know God wants me here, at this time, for a reason. Any encouragement or advice is welcome. Thank you for your time!
