Hello
I'm new to this forum and this is my first post. I also want to cut right to the chase and explain my issues. In 2010 during my first year in college, I began crossdressing because I wanted to be a woman and feel like one. I envied women for their looks and how society wants to protect women all the time. I hated male expectations and how almost every criminal is a man. I hated being a man still do to this day. However, earlier last month I decided to quit crossdressing because the envy I was feeling started to distress me deeply a lot. Once I donated all my feminine items to the Salvation Army, I felt somewhat free from the envy and my distress lessened. Although, while the envy was gone, I felt somewhat misogynistic. I mean these days women get to act like men, not to be this stay at home wife while at the same time have the privilege of being protected even when they do something wrong. Along with this I also felt hatred towards God for making a stronger and weaker sex while knowing this would cause problems with the strong oppressing the weak. Women may have been oppressed throughout history but nowadays women have so many freedoms even more than men. All women have to do to secure salvation is find a good man to protect her and raise kids. Sounds easy. Men have to find a girl that likes him, be lucky enough that she marries him, have a job & hold it down, and provide and have so many other responsibilities thereafter like protecting his woman and every other woman around him including strangers. We all know it's very likely there will be men who will fail at this and become either thieves, drug dealers/addicts, pimps, or sex offenders. Not a lot of women become these things and if a woman becomes a sex offender she will not suffer the same brutal treatment because that will hurt a lot and women can't take such pain while men feel no pain at all (sarcasm). This may also conclude that their are more men in Hell than women. Another thing that I hate is the male sex drive. Sex is frequently in the media and women's fashion makes men crave the female body and that can cause so much suffering and stumbling when a man tries to be faithful to God. Many women, including Christian women, don't respect men's lustful cravings and think they just have to deal with it like it's nothing. I wish all women could see how it is like to be a man for one day, just one. Anyway, last Fall, I found out about the Men's Rights Movement and it was absolutely amazing how my feelings related to the men of the movement. However, the movement has received negative attention. I really don't want to feel this way anymore but I can't seem to get over this feeling. Recently I have been thinking that going back to crossdressing will help but I'm not sure that will work either plus I have to buy back all the feminine items. I don't mean to offend anyone with this post. I just want to express what I'm feeling and want to find a way out of it.
I'm new to this forum and this is my first post. I also want to cut right to the chase and explain my issues. In 2010 during my first year in college, I began crossdressing because I wanted to be a woman and feel like one. I envied women for their looks and how society wants to protect women all the time. I hated male expectations and how almost every criminal is a man. I hated being a man still do to this day. However, earlier last month I decided to quit crossdressing because the envy I was feeling started to distress me deeply a lot. Once I donated all my feminine items to the Salvation Army, I felt somewhat free from the envy and my distress lessened. Although, while the envy was gone, I felt somewhat misogynistic. I mean these days women get to act like men, not to be this stay at home wife while at the same time have the privilege of being protected even when they do something wrong. Along with this I also felt hatred towards God for making a stronger and weaker sex while knowing this would cause problems with the strong oppressing the weak. Women may have been oppressed throughout history but nowadays women have so many freedoms even more than men. All women have to do to secure salvation is find a good man to protect her and raise kids. Sounds easy. Men have to find a girl that likes him, be lucky enough that she marries him, have a job & hold it down, and provide and have so many other responsibilities thereafter like protecting his woman and every other woman around him including strangers. We all know it's very likely there will be men who will fail at this and become either thieves, drug dealers/addicts, pimps, or sex offenders. Not a lot of women become these things and if a woman becomes a sex offender she will not suffer the same brutal treatment because that will hurt a lot and women can't take such pain while men feel no pain at all (sarcasm). This may also conclude that their are more men in Hell than women. Another thing that I hate is the male sex drive. Sex is frequently in the media and women's fashion makes men crave the female body and that can cause so much suffering and stumbling when a man tries to be faithful to God. Many women, including Christian women, don't respect men's lustful cravings and think they just have to deal with it like it's nothing. I wish all women could see how it is like to be a man for one day, just one. Anyway, last Fall, I found out about the Men's Rights Movement and it was absolutely amazing how my feelings related to the men of the movement. However, the movement has received negative attention. I really don't want to feel this way anymore but I can't seem to get over this feeling. Recently I have been thinking that going back to crossdressing will help but I'm not sure that will work either plus I have to buy back all the feminine items. I don't mean to offend anyone with this post. I just want to express what I'm feeling and want to find a way out of it.
