Hi there,
So I don't even know if this addresses problems I see everywhere or what, but I have come to the conclusion that madness is believing people will understand, no matter how much you tell them to be silent. Einstein said it was expecting the same results from different initial conditions, but I think that misses the mark, fundamentally it is expecting understanding from certain things you think are normal, but which you keep normal by telling people who know better to shut up. If we all just came down off cloud nine and said what Jesus says makes sense, we would have a foundation and no one would go crazy.
But we make it complicated, we say "no, I will keep this to myself; no, I will move on as if I haven't been told the truth; no, I will speak over the top of people to remind them that I know better than something that is now irrelevant anyway" and "I will go quietly crazy, worrying that my madness is out of control; I will quietly observe that things aren't right and then all of a sudden for no reason, without my saying anything, they will just go away". I mean really, did the Lord ever say "just snap out of it"?
Then there is public perception of the silence, that is something else altogether! The government controls it, the media controls it, family controls it - don't get me started about family, you would think if anyone understood that you didn't want to die trying to understand why everybody sins for no reason, it would be your family, but no, your family actually drives you madder - "listen to us" they say, "we have no faith or belief but we know what's best for you and actually we are so afraid that you've gone off the deep end we'd rather believe there is no solution, than admit that whatever progress you are able to make is the best thing for you". The silence of it, just eats away at you, until you've got nothing to give.
The truth is you have to meditate, you have sit yourself down and say "I don't care how much pain this causes my brain, I am absolutely not going to be crazy today". Let the Lord say "that's final".
So I don't even know if this addresses problems I see everywhere or what, but I have come to the conclusion that madness is believing people will understand, no matter how much you tell them to be silent. Einstein said it was expecting the same results from different initial conditions, but I think that misses the mark, fundamentally it is expecting understanding from certain things you think are normal, but which you keep normal by telling people who know better to shut up. If we all just came down off cloud nine and said what Jesus says makes sense, we would have a foundation and no one would go crazy.
But we make it complicated, we say "no, I will keep this to myself; no, I will move on as if I haven't been told the truth; no, I will speak over the top of people to remind them that I know better than something that is now irrelevant anyway" and "I will go quietly crazy, worrying that my madness is out of control; I will quietly observe that things aren't right and then all of a sudden for no reason, without my saying anything, they will just go away". I mean really, did the Lord ever say "just snap out of it"?
Then there is public perception of the silence, that is something else altogether! The government controls it, the media controls it, family controls it - don't get me started about family, you would think if anyone understood that you didn't want to die trying to understand why everybody sins for no reason, it would be your family, but no, your family actually drives you madder - "listen to us" they say, "we have no faith or belief but we know what's best for you and actually we are so afraid that you've gone off the deep end we'd rather believe there is no solution, than admit that whatever progress you are able to make is the best thing for you". The silence of it, just eats away at you, until you've got nothing to give.
The truth is you have to meditate, you have sit yourself down and say "I don't care how much pain this causes my brain, I am absolutely not going to be crazy today". Let the Lord say "that's final".
