what are you feeling right now? (24)

[Yusuphhai]

Had a nonsensical argument with my father. He thought Holy Son and Holy Father is one personality, Jesus Christ is a western God, New Testament abolished Old Testament. I love my father, I owe him too much. I am upset he worships Jesus in a wrong way. Prayers are very appreciated.

 

[Yusuphhai]

still feel low, may God not abandon me.

blessings to all.

 

[Jeshu]

still feel low, may God not abandon me.

God would never abandon you dear brother, but we in our lows do at times abandon Him i know to be true in my suffering life.

Be of good courage brother Jesus has overcome also your enemies.



From Darkness To Light.

My dear Lord Jesus
I'm not worthy to be Your servant
let alone be Your child
what can I do for You?

To have life in Your truth
a heart beating in love
This is what I desire
to get rid of that stone.

I fail You so often
not loving You true
harming my own life
untrue to You to be.

Yet You love me sure
Your mercies always anew
Your truth bringing New Life
growing right within You.

 

[Lady Bug]

Women's shelters can provide you housing and help you seek out some place affordable, as well as a job if you need it. Don't be afraid or ashamed to rely on any sort of government assistance such as SNAPs or wic if you have any children, as well as Medicaid if you have no health insurance.

Also look into low income housing, which are apartements that provide housing assisstance. I used to live in one because I worked a low wage job.

For any therapy (and psychiatry) you may need, look for sliding scale places. They're all based on income, so you could easily get all of that for free or incredibly low pay. And for cheaper meds, check out places like CostCo or CostCo, they offer medications for a lower price (though Sam's, you need the 100$ membership to benefit from that). And check out goodrx.com for coupons and such.

And don't be afraid to look for roommates! It's definitely a lot better than being on the streets.

If you do find yourself going to be homeless, make sure you're able to have the essentials such as spare changes of underwear, any toiletries you may need, a trac phone/cell phone with charger or changeable batteries, at least some money so you can get water and some food. You can only go three days without water before your body begins to shut down.

Don't be afraid to ask your friends for help, or even church members. Use connections and resources to the best of your ability. There should be someone who is willing to help you until you can find another home.

A lot of this is assuming you're in the United States.

But mostly, don't be afraid to use a homeless shelter if you need to. If you have pets, consider rehoming them temporarily. If you have children, check into local shelters to see if they can house all of you for the time being.

It's been literally weeks since I was supposed to reply to this. I have some sort of mental indolence that even I don't understand and I kept telling myself I'd to it "tomorrow" and so many tomorrows came and went.

I will copy/paste what you said somewhere else so that I can keep everything you said in mind. I wish I knew how to reply to most of the specifics you mentioned. I do have a couple of things I can say though.

I am afraid of being raped in shelters or something. I know they are better than nowhere, but still...

I don't have good connections - that is the most dangerous part of my life today, not having connections. I don't have a church home, I don't have friends except this one person I lost touch with and she probably won't want to talk to me anymore because it's been so long, and I'm so ashamed at trying to make new connections because I haven't had a job/career in many years and if they knew the truth about that they could view me as an utter disgrace and I don't know how to establish connections without eventually having to disclose these embarrassing aspects of my life

I want a church home but there's not a single church for me that doesn't have false doctrine in it and how can I become a member of a church if in my heart I dont agree with everything it believes in? ​

 

[Yusuphhai]

God would never abandon you dear brother, but we in our lows do at times abandon Him i know to be true in my suffering life.

Be of good courage brother Jesus has overcome also your enemies.



From Darkness To Light.

My dear Lord Jesus
I'm not worthy to be Your servant
let alone be Your child
what can I do for You?

To have life in Your truth
a heart beating in love
This is what I desire
to get rid of that stone.

I fail You so often
not loving You true
harming my own life
untrue to You to be.

Yet You love me sure
Your mercies always anew
Your truth bringing New Life
growing right within You.

Yeah though I fell into pit so deep, the Lord never abandons me. Sometimes I feel so guilty as if hell was so near and my eternal end result. But through your words I am more sure even when I am not faithful, the Lord is still faithful to me. Jesus’ precious Blood is just the Covenant which God made with us! I believe with His Blood and Life in us we can overcome all the spiritual enemies. I will tell this Gospel to others.

You are a so sweet and doughty brother. If you fall into darkness temporarily, wish you can find the Light soon. Many blessings to you.

 

[Missjenjen18]

Hi I am Jennifer and I am 18 years old. I will be going to college very soon and I can see God doing great things in my life. I have recently had a problem about feeling shame and guilt for something I did. I have masturbated some throughout my teen years. It has never been an addiction where it has been disrupting my life. When I was 17 years old I accidentally saw porn images a few times at night just before going to bed. I was very naive then and really did not understand what was going on with me and I did not really know that porn could be bad. Then one of my mom's friends took us to a sex talk at my church and they gave us the talk about sex and that it is bad to look at porn. Once heard that I immediately stopped and never went back to it because I found out it was not good. Just recently I have felt guilty for doing this and this brought me to confess to my mother that I have masturbated. My mother told me it was ok and that should not.feel.guilty for doing it. I confessed my sins to the Lord and asked him to forgive me but I still feel very guilty. How to I overcome this feeling help! And to answer the question on this forum I am currently feeling guilty and shameful. I would really like someone to answer me for spiritual guidance.

 

[Missjenjen18]

Hi I'm Jennifer and Inam a new member!

 

[chaoticfirefly]

It's been literally weeks since I was supposed to reply to this. I have some sort of mental indolence that even I don't understand and I kept telling myself I'd to it "tomorrow" and so many tomorrows came and went.

I will copy/paste what you said somewhere else so that I can keep everything you said in mind. I wish I knew how to reply to most of the specifics you mentioned. I do have a couple of things I can say though.

I am afraid of being raped in shelters or something. I know they are better than nowhere, but still...

I don't have good connections - that is the most dangerous part of my life today, not having connections. I don't have a church home, I don't have friends except this one person I lost touch with and she probably won't want to talk to me anymore because it's been so long, and I'm so ashamed at trying to make new connections because I haven't had a job/career in many years and if they knew the truth about that they could view me as an utter disgrace and I don't know how to establish connections without eventually having to disclose these embarrassing aspects of my life

I want a church home but there's not a single church for me that doesn't have false doctrine in it and how can I become a member of a church if in my heart I dont agree with everything it believes in? ​

Shelters typically have men and women divided in different areas, sort of like dorms. A woman's shelter is that: a woman's only shelter. So no guys, except maybe staff.

If you can, and haven't already, look into disabilty or SSI (or your country's equivilant). Disability typically gives you a permanent residency somewhere, if not that, low in come housing is good too. Rent is cheaper for low income, plus other things. You just have to google all of your options available to you to see what's available where you live and call and go to the meetings. You should be able to qualify for a lot.

Try getting in touch with her, she likely won't be as upset as you think she'll be. If it's difficult to work, try something a little more menial, libraries are a nice place to work (quiet, usually low demand) but the pay isn't super great.

If you like arts and crafts sort of stuff, and you can handle making stuff in bulk, the internet is a great place to start up a buisness and etsy is amazing with this.

And check with the Salvation Army, they may have ideas and suggestions for you.

Good luck.

 

[Jeshu]

Hi I'm Jennifer and Inam a new member!

Hi Jennifer good that you dare to speak about such private things as you have done. And welcome to the forums. i hope you will enjoy a good time here and find many friends.

First of all good on you for refraining from porn, it is an evil wrong plaguing your generation as it has so many now but never so freely and easily accessible.


The shame and guilt are smitten upon us by satan the accuser who works through our guilty conscience and tries to convict us of wrong, though we have asked Jesus to forgive us and we have turned away from sinful actions.

Now is the time to exercise your faith in Christ's blood sister. For if you have confessed your sins and refrain from porn or lustful thoughts then you have nothing to be ashamed or guilty about. For Christ has cleansed you. Well done if things are like that.

If on the other hand the porn has activated your imagination to do the work of porn then ask Jesus to cleanse your heart and mind and think New thoughts in Christ's love to counteract the lustful or porn like thoughts. New thoughts are thoughts about sex that are good and up building, like how to be a good partner for example, rather than lustfully burning to be satisfied only for self.

My name is Gerry and i have been a long standing member on this forum.

Peace.

 

[Missjenjen18]

Thank you very much.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

I feel like a worthless failure.

 

[Jeshu]

I feel like a worthless failure.

i'm so sorry that you have arrived at such a horrible conclusion. i know that when i felt about myself that way that my depression peak. Please take care to judge yourself fairly seeing you are mentally ill, you should not compare yourself with healthy people that is not fair on yourself.

Already you are a survivor and a battler, please do be kind to yourself and resist those judgemental feelings as much as you can they will only make you feel even worse about yourself, it is bad enough as it is.

Peace

 

[LovebirdsFlying]

I feel like a worthless failure.

I often feel that way too. We both need to remind ourselves that just because we feel a certain way, that doens't make it true.

 

[Jenniferdiana]

sleepy

 

[Press On]

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[Press On]

Been a bit rough as of late. Off all meds for 2 years doing reasonably well but reluctantly went back on an antidepressant because of erratic moods and coping skills.

My doctor has known me for years and knows I do my research. Suggested Prozac but Medicare won’t pay and I’m not about to fork over $357 a month. Instead we tried a generic form of Zoloft for about $5 a month copay.

Wants me on it for 6 months. Been 2 weeks and already quite a difference. Definitely chemical imbalance related. 25 mg every other day with a 10 mg melatonin kicker as well does satisfactorily. 5-HTP on alternate days to help with sleep.

Our old man garage band not playing as much this year but that’s ok, though I like the idea of a hobby I enjoy and get paid for as well. Still doing community service playing music with a friend for nursing home residents and doing a Meals on Wheels route. A good tonic for depression. So is going to the gym. Also spending more time in prayer/bible study which I was slacking a bit in for a while.

Many thanks to Jeshu for helping me climb back out of the pit. Haven’t been on here much but check in every day and pray for you all. Blessings.

 

[Jeshu]

i've been doing reasonable well the last week or so, a few small dips but nothing much - i did increase my 5-htp from 300 mg to 400 mg and it seems to make a difference.

Still find it hard to get going so i try and do little chores to challenge myself to get up and about more. Still working on my hydroponic system, it isn't up and running yet, but i'm getting close, just an question of spending a few hours adjusting the nutrients flow.

i've also been busy on my computer installing the latest Ubuntu operating system. i'm impressed with all the work that they have done on it. It comes up really pretty and tidy and runs very smoothly. And all for free if you can't pay and they throw in five years of security updates. Plus thousands of free software programs in the Linux repositories. Any one with a little computer knowledge can download and install this operating system on their computers for free. (Even along side Microsoft Windows.)

Ever since i decided to run Linux operating systems i've had no more problems with viruses or hackers either. The operating system is much more secure than Microsoft Windows.

i paid them this time so they can keep developing the program but it is for free to those who can't pay. That is why i love Linux! Because it is from the people for the people as computing should have always been.

Took me only a few hours of tweaking on my program to make it run properly again that was all, while they developed a complete new Kernel to run Ubuntu 18.04.1

For those interested to try it out. Here is a link to their site. https://www.ubuntu.com/download/desktop

Will listen to a sermon on C.C.V shortly i like their sermons listening to a series on the Gospel according to Mark and have been enjoying them a lot.

The Weather here has been wet and cold with Winter in full fury upon us. We have had the fireplace going since Wednesday because it has been so cold and stormy.

Have a blessed week.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

Been a bit rough as of late. Off all meds for 2 years doing reasonably well but reluctantly went back on an antidepressant because of erratic moods and coping skills.

My doctor has known me for years and knows I do my research. Suggested Prozac but Medicare won’t pay and I’m not about to fork over $357 a month. Instead we tried a generic form of Zoloft for about $5 a month copay.

Wants me on it for 6 months. Been 2 weeks and already quite a difference. Definitely chemical imbalance related. 25 mg every other day with a 10 mg melatonin kicker as well does satisfactorily. 5-HTP on alternate days to help with sleep.

Our old man garage band not playing as much this year but that’s ok, though I like the idea of a hobby I enjoy and get paid for as well. Still doing community service playing music with a friend for nursing home residents and doing a Meals on Wheels route. A good tonic for depression. So is going to the gym. Also spending more time in prayer/bible study which I was slacking a bit in for a while.

Many thanks to Jeshu for helping me climb back out of the pit. Haven’t been on here much but check in every day and pray for you all. Blessings.

GoodRx has coupons and such for medications. CostCo and Sam's Club also has discounts for prescriptions (you need the plus for Sam's, however, I don't know about CostCo).

Good luck.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

i'm so sorry that you have arrived at such a horrible conclusion. i know that when i felt about myself that way that my depression peak. Please take care to judge yourself fairly seeing you are mentally ill, you should not compare yourself with healthy people that is not fair on yourself.

Already you are a survivor and a battler, please do be kind to yourself and resist those judgemental feelings as much as you can they will only make you feel even worse about yourself, it is bad enough as it is.

Peace

I often feel that way too. We both need to remind ourselves that just because we feel a certain way, that doens't make it true.

Thanks you two. Your kind words mean a lot.

 

[chaoticfirefly]

Sick.

I don't know what's wrong. This has been on and off for a few months now. And I really can't afford invasive tests before school.