It was less of the questions and more of the answers. I had always wondered about that other tree in the story of the Garden, the tree of Life. I found it, and more, in Holy Communion. I wondered about whatever happened to Adam, and then I would hear at Orthos, 'now is Adam rejoicing, now is Eve dancing'. And that told me, 'He who is faithful to the first will be faithful to the last'. The Roman Catholic I was dating tried to teach me to cross myself, and I would do it the wrong way, and she would say 'you cross like the Orthodox' ...and I wondered what that was? I knew I had found something deeply important and unexpected in Catholicism, but there were parts of it that sat badly with me. I asked God if RC was really the legacy of Christ they said it was, and I didn't get a Yes or No answer, but He simply said to me 'there is another legacy'. And so I went looking for it and found my home.
I loved the Liturgy, I took a book home with me and I read it often. It didn't bother me that 1/2 of the service was in Greek, it made me pay attention and try to learn. I love it when they call "The doors! The doors!" before the Creed. It is an amazing thing to be a part of a 2000 year old prayer. If you believe at all in the power of prayer, it is the biggest prayer ever prayed, I had never thought about it before. "...We who are mystically icons of the Cherubim". I realized and remembered that a visiting artist at my high school had guided us in the Byzantine style a long time ago to do a mural I designed. He was Greek. The mural in a sense had been my own icon, left behind before I went to college and walked away from God.
Before I found the Church, I had been in a desperate state and took some notecards and asked God to help me write what I needed. I then proceeded to write "Rule #1: a disciple needs discipline" followed by (much to my surprise) "Rule #2: You don't get to make the rules". So I suppose that's what I was looking for and what I needed and I found (among other things) in the Orthodox way. A disciplined spirituality, a path to growth. The legacy of Christ. And a lot of things I didn't even know I was looking for or had forgotten along the way.