will i still go to heaven if i kill myself? **Trigger Warning**

[bonniejo.r]

my pain is too much and i am all alone. i read the scriptures but have no hope. i see no way out. i can’t eat sleep. i just want to be in heaven where i will be loved. will Jesus forgive my of my sin?

 

[Sanoy]

No one knows, the final act may itself be murder. But we need you Bonniejo. We are salt and light to a world of darkness even when we feel worthless. The world needs you, and as a part of the Body of Christ we need you!

This song has always helped me through these thoughts and I hope it will help you. The singer is singing his heart out here as he was planning to kill himself before he found Christ.

 

[Heavenhome]

Please hold on. There are people who can help you. You are so precious to God, so please don't let your feelings tell you otherwise. I too long to be with Jesus but it is not for me to decide the time.
There are people here who go through feelings such as yours and you will find encouragement and support.
Don't give up dear one. I will be praying for you.
I would like you to read Psalm 27.
Psalms 61 and 62 are helpful too.
God bless you and "be of good courage and he shall strengthen thine heart"

 

[expos4ever]

Please just talk to someone right away. When I was really really angry once, I reached out for support. Although you may not realize it now, you will find your way out your present despair.

Just like I found my way past my anger,

 

[Apologetic_Warrior]

my pain is too much and i am all alone. i read the scriptures but have no hope. i see no way out. i can’t eat sleep. i just want to be in heaven where i will be loved. will Jesus forgive my of my sin?

Would you want to die without knowing definitively? i wouldn't.... Would you risk it all on indefinite knowledge? I'm in pain too, just the physical pains of diabetic neuropathy damage to nerves, and degenerative scoliosis slowly chipping away at my constitution every day. Life is not ours to take bro, cling to the giver of life, may Christ be your everything, may He put your hope in Him, and give peace that surpasses all understanding.

 

[DW1980]

my pain is too much and i am all alone. i read the scriptures but have no hope. i see no way out. i can’t eat sleep. i just want to be in heaven where i will be loved. will Jesus forgive my of my sin?

Hi

I have been where you are now - I know what it is to want to get out from life.

You could end it all. That will end the pain and suffering. But, it will also take away all the good things in your future. I am so glad I am still here, I was wrong, there was hope, there was no way out, but there was a way through. I am certain that this will be true for you too.

Give it time, trust that God knows what he is doing. I know - believe me I know - that right now, that's the hardest thing you can do. It's the hardest thing to believe. But it is true. I know that from experience.

One day you will look back, and you too will be glad you are still here. Nothing stays the same, everything changes - even your situation. Whatever is happening to you will not last forever. It does, and it will get better.

Praying for you

 

[GodsGrace101]

Is your pain physical or emotional?

I'm sorry for what you're going through. This world is a tough place and we all have our problems...you're not alone.

If your pain is emotional, I can tell you this for sure: All things pass. It may seem like there'll be no end in sight, but change is the rule and things are always changing.

Life is like a play, every act is different and has a new stage design.

God will call you when it's time --- it's not up to you to decide when it's time.

If God is for you...who can be against you??

God bless you and give you the strength you need at this time in your life.

 

[Southernscotty]

Listen Friend, We are here for you and I know all to well the damage that suicide does to the people you leave behind. Please do not attempt this as it is never the answer. I sent you a private message. Please talk to me.

 

[Heavenhome]

I have to come and agree with DW1980 as I have been where you are and it prompted me to remember also something that I was told and still hold onto whenever I need to.

And that is YOU WILL NOT ALWAYS FEEL THIS WAY and sometimes you just have to ride it out and I know its hard but you will be able.
We all hold you in prayer and more importantly God holds you in the palm of His hand and when we see Him he will wash all tears from our eyes. Imagine that!

 

[Southernscotty]

Father I lift up Bonnie to you and I pray Your strength and great peace for her, Help her Lord to realize that life is a blessing and that You can use her greatly to reach others for the Kingdom and that she can have a happy healthy and productive life in Jesus name Amen.

 

[Southernscotty]

National Suicide Prevention Lifeline

Call 1-800-273-8255
Available 24 hours

 

[Kevin Snow]

I have been suicidal and have made multiple attempts at my life and there is nothing to be gained in it. God has a purpose for us and you should rely on God. If you really count on being with him for eternity then isn't this life a small price to pay? It is not from wisdom which you are thinking. God wants us to do his will and his will is obviously for you to live and save other souls. So stop thinking about yourself and let God take care of it.

 

[name_is_irrelevant]

my pain is too much and i am all alone. i read the scriptures but have no hope. i see no way out. i can’t eat sleep. i just want to be in heaven where i will be loved. will Jesus forgive my of my sin?

Yes, but don't.

Going to heaven isn't dependent on your obedience; Christ obeyed on your behalf, so you get in off that, not your own. Justification is independent of your behaviour, because only perfect behaviour is acceptable to God, and no one's perfect but Christ, so you get in off his obedience instead.

Now go get counselling.

 

[~Anastasia~]

Dear one,

I am praying for you.

Please accept some help. As to the answer for your question, it is not something any of us can answer with certainty how God will judge a particular person.

But suicide is never the answer. It is the enemy that pushes such thoughts. You will surely cut off good plans of God toward you, and hurt others at the same time. Don't let the enemy push you to do such a thing.

There are people who will talk you anytime ... I see one link given above, but depending on what you are facing others may be able to help too. Here is a post that lists all kinds of help.

Crisis Hotlines

Suicide Hotlines

Abuse Issues

Child Abuse
Domestic Violence
Elder Abuse
Incest/Sexual Abuse
Rape

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AIDS/Other Sexual Health


Cancer

Caregivers

Crime

Crisis Lines/Under 18

Crisis Lines/Any Age

Depression Resources

Dyslexia

Eating Disorders

Gambling

Homelessness

Miscellaneous

Parenting Issues

Pregnancy

Runaway

Self-Injury

Substance Abuse

Alcohol
Other Drugs

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Suicide Hotlines

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We also have a chaplain's area where you can talk to them, privately if you want.

Chaplains Office

Do you have a pastor you can talk to? Friends or family members? Please reach out to people who can offer you help.

Praying for you.

God be with you.

 

[SkyWriting]

my pain is too much and i am all alone. i read the scriptures but have no hope. i see no way out. i can’t eat sleep. i just want to be in heaven where i will be loved. will Jesus forgive my of my sin?

Any of us might die at any minute and feel that warm glow too.
But it remains a mystery why we got stuck here instead with
no way out of it visible. We just have to trust that God had
something in mind and keep our eyes open for what He has planned.

 

[heisrisen90]

I have been there multiple times, full on suck the life out of you despair when it feels like theres no possible way you can take another minute. It always gets better though.

<staff edit>

Here is a short video from a respected pastor. listen to 2:50 on especially
Are There Times When You're So Depressed, You Don't Want to Be Ar - Resources - Eternal Perspective Ministries

I dont mean to suck the hope that you are feeling suicide will bring out of you(ive felt it) but whats saved me so many times is the "what if" and i seriously want you to think about that.
What if...
We are talking about something ETERNAL!!!

 

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[needhugs]

Dear one, go and listen to some truth if you are having trouble gleaning it from the Bible on your own:

bible-truths.com

you are under attack, but one question you might want to ask yourself is 'Who do i want to STOP listening to? God or satan?'

i have tried to commit suicide a few times... and found out the old adage is true; that a Christian is immortal until God says otherwise... you belong to Christ now, and even if you disavowed Him, He will remain faithful, because He cannot deny Himself... you, dear one, are part of His body.

this may sound odd, but when i wanted to commit suicide super badly, i would try to think of ONE THING that I have wanted to do, but perhaps didn't have the courage to do... and i would start plotting how to get it done... and it helps... it helps because it points you in the direction of choosing to live.

 

[meconstant3402]

Please, please, don't go in that direction. I do that and it hurts. You know we are also little children of Christ especially when we suffer. <staff edit> We must consider ourselves torn from our Parent when we think of death. I love you and I don't want you to die.

 

[bonniejo.r]

went to hospital last night. feel so much better. God reaches down and pulled my out of the pit i was in. i have peace in my soul now and am so glad He heard my prayers for help.