Believe me, I know what I am talking about. I have been going through major depression for more than last two and half years and before I discovered my spirituality, on several occasions, I had suicidal thoughts. But since I found Christ I know God has a purpose for creating me - however small it might be. I may not understand that purpose yet there must be one - it's maybe just beyond my grasp of comprehension. That's all. Living a good, kind and forgiving life as shown by Christ is the journey through which we find our little purpose and our place in God's creation. So I was wondering why would any Christian kill himself/herself? Is it just a momentary lapse of faith and understanding?