I post here because I joined as a Christian, two years ago (old account got eaten in the crash) hoping to find Christian fellowship.
My deconversion was slow, and I guess I stuck around hoping to regain my Christianity, or at least figure out what I believed. I posted in GA, several other places. Ended up finding the opposite of what I sought, and have been slowly drifting further away from Christianity ever since. I believe my deconversion is nearly complete.
I post mainly in Women's Discussion in Life Stages now, since the topics started to be [open]. Luckily one of their regulars had a crisis of faith at the same time as me (she's Christian again now), so almost all their threads were opened to me. After that I really just didn't go back to GA again.
We don't always agree, but after posting together for awhile (the time that I was Christian and the open threads combined) we've come to care for each other, all of us, and our bond has gotten stronger since the forums became open. So I post because I want to see my friends.
Truth be told, part of me hoped that they'd look at me and say to themselves "Hey...maybe non Christians aren't so bad after all. Maybe they're kinda neat." Truth be told, that's happened. I was looking for acceptance for what I truly was, and I found it.
I applied to be a moderator when I was allowed to because there was a need for it. I didn't want to take over, I didn't want to liberalize, I didn't want to kill all of the Christian first borns
...I wanted to help. The teams were getting backed up with reports, and since I only posted in WD really...where else could I volunteer but Ministry team? Let me be clear, I would only moderate in WD. I'm not stupid enough to set foot in the ministry
forums. Those
should be Christians only, and I think they are now.
I only got 3 (possibly 4) no votes from WD'ers. They said if I were Christian, they would vote for me in a heartbeat. The rest said yes.
Short version: I post because I have friends here. I applied to mod because I wanted to help.
Turns out though that they don't need me, and since they can't use me anywhere else because of my icon... *shrug* Really discouraging, and since my capabilities were questioned because of my icon, I'm not sure I
want to do it anymore. It would only get worse if I got hired.
Sothron, I'm not angry at you btw
My friends have asked the same questions. I'm sorry if I came across that way.