Now that I have your attention
The question is "Why do I expect certain levels of functioning as a family, when I know it is not possible?"
Our family of 4 is made of 4 unique pieces. Sort of like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, but each can stand on his or her own. Each one is a beautiful work of art, each holding great strengths and abilities in several areas. Each can serve as a guide, a leader, a role-model of sorts to everyone and anyone in need.
BUT
The 4 pieces do not connect to form a complete picture. Try as you will, swap the places of the pieces, rotate them, flip them over, try anything, the sides will not fit together, and the picture cannot be completed. Sure, you can get two pieces to fit at times, rarely even 3, but there will always be a flaw that will keep all four from functioning together.
I have long realized this, and accepted that the completed puzzle is just an illusion. It is an idea, a concept perhaps, but has no basis in reality. The Pursuit of which is likened to solving pi to a final digit....or perhaps drawing an X inside a box without retracing or lifting the pencil. It cannot me done, or at least not in polynomial time.
The past few months, the mother of the pieces has started attending a nearby Baptist-megachurch. She goes alone, unless her mom is in town. I refuse to go, warning her of the dangers that can lurk inside, but her recurring theme and tearful reply is that we never get to do anything as a family.
That is because the puzzle pieces do not fit. We are not, nor will we ever be, able to do things as a family. The pieces do not fit that way. For us, we are 4 awesome people living in a house together, doing the best we can to make a positive impact on those around us.
I hope that soon she too will realize this and accept it and move on as I have.
The question is "Why do I expect certain levels of functioning as a family, when I know it is not possible?"
Our family of 4 is made of 4 unique pieces. Sort of like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle, but each can stand on his or her own. Each one is a beautiful work of art, each holding great strengths and abilities in several areas. Each can serve as a guide, a leader, a role-model of sorts to everyone and anyone in need.
BUT
The 4 pieces do not connect to form a complete picture. Try as you will, swap the places of the pieces, rotate them, flip them over, try anything, the sides will not fit together, and the picture cannot be completed. Sure, you can get two pieces to fit at times, rarely even 3, but there will always be a flaw that will keep all four from functioning together.
I have long realized this, and accepted that the completed puzzle is just an illusion. It is an idea, a concept perhaps, but has no basis in reality. The Pursuit of which is likened to solving pi to a final digit....or perhaps drawing an X inside a box without retracing or lifting the pencil. It cannot me done, or at least not in polynomial time.
The past few months, the mother of the pieces has started attending a nearby Baptist-megachurch. She goes alone, unless her mom is in town. I refuse to go, warning her of the dangers that can lurk inside, but her recurring theme and tearful reply is that we never get to do anything as a family.
That is because the puzzle pieces do not fit. We are not, nor will we ever be, able to do things as a family. The pieces do not fit that way. For us, we are 4 awesome people living in a house together, doing the best we can to make a positive impact on those around us.
I hope that soon she too will realize this and accept it and move on as I have.