i listen to reformed pastors on the computer. piper, washer, spurgeon, and go to macarthur's church from time to time. i dont really understand much about how predestination works and how everything else works with it. it is very confusing. so far however, i dont like the idea of having free will, and my salvation being dependant on MY choice.
however, i just had a question come up to my head. i remembered how i saw a clip of piper saying something about how he doesnt know if all his children will be ones of God's elect. i dont remember what he said after that.
but now i wonder, how could i have children if they might end up not being one of the elect? i would just have children only for them to perish, and i cannot do anything about it. not all children that grow up in good christian homes get saved.
if i was an arminian, then at least i could feel that i have some control over this problem, and that maybe if i teach them right, or find the right way to their heart that they could make a choice to recieve salvation. but with calvinism, it seems there is no control over your children at all. you'd just give birth to people that will perish. it seems better not to give them life at all. giving birth to people from who God withholds his salvation, and they happen to be your children!
then again, with arminianism, you will blame yourself for the rest of your life that you didnt say the right words or find the right way to your child's heart.
both options seem terrible. seems like the best thing to do is not to have children.
however, i just had a question come up to my head. i remembered how i saw a clip of piper saying something about how he doesnt know if all his children will be ones of God's elect. i dont remember what he said after that.
but now i wonder, how could i have children if they might end up not being one of the elect? i would just have children only for them to perish, and i cannot do anything about it. not all children that grow up in good christian homes get saved.
if i was an arminian, then at least i could feel that i have some control over this problem, and that maybe if i teach them right, or find the right way to their heart that they could make a choice to recieve salvation. but with calvinism, it seems there is no control over your children at all. you'd just give birth to people that will perish. it seems better not to give them life at all. giving birth to people from who God withholds his salvation, and they happen to be your children!
then again, with arminianism, you will blame yourself for the rest of your life that you didnt say the right words or find the right way to your child's heart.
both options seem terrible. seems like the best thing to do is not to have children.