I always think of those things too. I sometimes fall into those thoughts where I think that my life is unimportant if I don't do anything spectacular and become a 'somebody' worth putting on Wikipedia.
But the truth is, who cares?
It was only this week that I've started to find it all out myself. Don't get me wrong, I still feel that way. I realize how much of attention and acknowledgement I've been craving for all these years, and how much I've suppressed them just to keep myself 'humble.' But I know that what I've done to myself was wrong and that my methods didn't keep me humble at all. My thirst for attention grew even more.
Truthfully told, I want more attention than anyone else. I want people to think that I'm the greatest or that I've done something important.
None of that matters to me too much like it used to anymore. There's always going to be someone better than me at something. Some nine year old is already an accomplished painter. There are genius sixteen year olds who just graduated from college with a 4.0. But even if they've got their names released in newspapers or Wikipedia, it's a great accomplishment, but not everyone will remember them.
What matters to me now is how I'm going to live out this life that I'm given. Life's a gift from the Lord, so don't waste it. But don't take everything way too personally and seriously. Your life should always be just devoted to God and focused on Him in whatever you do in life.
Try reading this book. Some pretty good stuff's all there:
Amazon.com: God Never Blinks: 50 Lessons for Life's Little Detours (9780446556521): Regina Brett: Books
I'm just going to live the best that I can. I'm not a genius. I came from a disadvantaged background, but there are people who lived in far worse conditions than I have. If I could start all over, I would've quickly took all of my high school courses, graduated by the time I was 15 or 16, and went straight off to NYC or Europe to study design.
Well, life doesn't always work out that way, and I'm now not studying design. I'm twenty, and I've circled around here and there in my life. But so far, I've met various people in life with colorful souls, heard things that no one has heard before, and seen things that no one has seen. I've got my own two legs, two eyes, and two hands to do something for tomorrow.