I totally understand, I feel your pain brother. It can be difficult to come to terms with when thought through. I mean if we slightly revise the atheist argument against God from evil, it's a real headache. I will try to roughly work through it here briefly in layman terms. Our God is all powerful, Holy, He is love, there is no greater love, and we are His children. Now I am a parent of one child, and I have a special love for him that is greater than love for others. I want what is best for him, though admittedly as a finite human being, I may not always know what is best for him. By the same token, we may not know what is best for us, and given our nature may strive against what we know is best. Because God is all powerful, Holy, Love, and we are His children, we expect Him to take care of us, not just our Spiritual needs but our earthly needs. Here is another point to stop and take notice, the difference between need and want. We need enough to survive, but we want so much more. Now going back to my role as a parent, my wife and I take care of our sons needs, but out of love for him, we want to do more than provide the bare minimum needs or anything resembling bare minimum. We want him to be happy and enjoy life while remembering safety first. Here is another point to stop and take notice, safety may require sacrificing an extent of temporary happiness and enjoyment. I could go into examples but I think the reader can come up with them. Reeling this back in, we can look to Scripture and see examples of where God's people would prosper and where and when they were impoverished. One example of prosperity that comes to mind is King David. Look at his humble roots though and all that he went through before becoming a wealthy King. Same goes for Joseph. But consider the ratio of poor to prosperous in Biblical times. Consider the standards of living for the poor and prosperous during Biblical times. Well I do not want to write a book here and probably should be doing something else, but wanted to write a little on this topic to let you know you're not alone, it is something I've struggled with on and off at times. Not really a topic where simple flippant answers settle anything I think, and it does involve the problem of evil. I'll tell you one Scripture that has baffled me for a long time. It's one of Jesus' "beatitudes", the one along these lines:
"the meek shall inherit the earth". What can this possibly mean? The wealthy own most of the literal earth, and we can all point to Scriptures about money, camels and needles, to support the notion that for the most part, "the meek" are not the wealthy as a general rule.