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And why does he allow us to continue to exist? I don't really want an answer. I just want to say that I hurt him every day, and saying I will try to do it less is nothing. It makes up for nothing.
And I am not immodest when I say that I am not the worst. But He never gives up. Why? If a dog treated you like we treat God, you would have it put to sleep.
There are men in prison who are on God's list. Someone now is committing a murder - he is on the list too. They are full of fury because they believe God has forgotten them, and He has not! He is only waiting for them to come home to Him. I pray He doesn't forget to remind them that He remembers them. I know how happy I was when He told me He remembered me.
Why don't Christians tell the world of God's love? Never mind, I haven't done it either. God hates sin, but He loves His people - all of them.
He won't let me come home to Him until I have done His work for me, but I don't know what it is. I hope I find out soon. I hate this place so much. I don't want to get into Heaven if I don't deserve it, but maybe there is a place where I can hear the angels sing, somewhere outside the gates, in the dark. Where I don't have to hear the demons.
I don't think He understands how bad it is down here. (Is there a verse in the Bible where it actually says God is omniscient?) Maybe He knows but doesn't understand. To Him, 70 years is an eyeblink. I congratulate those who die early - they graduate to eternal glory, early. Maybe His pain is even greater than ours.
Finally, I want to thank God for the birds He sent me last winter. And the last bird that came to say "goodbye." We both knew he would not be back the next year, he just wanted to be remembered. I thank Him also for more important things that I will not mention. I thank Him for the mountains and the birds flying in the thermals of the mountains. But I can't go on forever. The more I understand, the worse it gets. I understand that sin never goes away, that those who rule this world love Satan only less than themselves, and real love has lost all power because nobody knows what it means any more.
I don't really want an answer, just to say something. There is no way to say everything. I wish I could say I love you and it not sound like a lie. But I can't do that, and you wouldn't want me to if I could.
And I am not immodest when I say that I am not the worst. But He never gives up. Why? If a dog treated you like we treat God, you would have it put to sleep.
There are men in prison who are on God's list. Someone now is committing a murder - he is on the list too. They are full of fury because they believe God has forgotten them, and He has not! He is only waiting for them to come home to Him. I pray He doesn't forget to remind them that He remembers them. I know how happy I was when He told me He remembered me.
Why don't Christians tell the world of God's love? Never mind, I haven't done it either. God hates sin, but He loves His people - all of them.
He won't let me come home to Him until I have done His work for me, but I don't know what it is. I hope I find out soon. I hate this place so much. I don't want to get into Heaven if I don't deserve it, but maybe there is a place where I can hear the angels sing, somewhere outside the gates, in the dark. Where I don't have to hear the demons.
I don't think He understands how bad it is down here. (Is there a verse in the Bible where it actually says God is omniscient?) Maybe He knows but doesn't understand. To Him, 70 years is an eyeblink. I congratulate those who die early - they graduate to eternal glory, early. Maybe His pain is even greater than ours.
Finally, I want to thank God for the birds He sent me last winter. And the last bird that came to say "goodbye." We both knew he would not be back the next year, he just wanted to be remembered. I thank Him also for more important things that I will not mention. I thank Him for the mountains and the birds flying in the thermals of the mountains. But I can't go on forever. The more I understand, the worse it gets. I understand that sin never goes away, that those who rule this world love Satan only less than themselves, and real love has lost all power because nobody knows what it means any more.
I don't really want an answer, just to say something. There is no way to say everything. I wish I could say I love you and it not sound like a lie. But I can't do that, and you wouldn't want me to if I could.
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