Why am I depressed?

[Siddhi Koli]

I have not been able to walk since birth.I remember sinning as a child.Because of this I want salvation.

I don't like some people saying bad words.

I was a pure vegetarian because consuming non-vegetarian food is sinful.

I used to think about which religion to choose. That is to choose monotheism or polytheism.

Or I used to think about which deity to believe.

I started remembering negative things, became irritable and vitamin deficient and Fell unconscious.

I was taken to Apollo Hospital and regained consciousness.

Then I went to another hospital. Doctor gave me sleeping pill because I can't sleep all night.
And was not hungry

When I saw the Holy Spirit I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.

Then I started eating vegetarian and non-vegetarian foods

 

[Sabertooth]

When I saw the Holy Spirit I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.

Have you been Born Again?

 

[Siddhi Koli]

Have you been Born Again?

don't know What does that mean?

 

[Sabertooth]

don't know What does that mean?

The blue part is a link that will explain it. (It is in Hindi.)

 

[Siddhi Koli]

The blue part is a link that will explain it. (It is in Hindi.)

yes i read But I feel like I am born again. I accepted Christ.

 

[Sabertooth]

I accepted Christ.

That is the best place to start.
For depression specifically, see a psychiatrist and find a church that prays for healing. (Not all of them do.)

 

[dqhall]

I have not been able to walk since birth.I remember sinning as a child.Because of this I want salvation.

I don't like some people saying bad words.

I was a pure vegetarian because consuming non-vegetarian food is sinful.

I used to think about which religion to choose. That is to choose monotheism or polytheism.

Or I used to think about which deity to believe.

I started remembering negative things, became irritable and vitamin deficient and passed out .

I was taken to Apollo Hospital and regained consciousness.

Then I went to another hospital. Doctor gave me sleeping pill because I can't sleep all night.
And was not hungry

When I saw the Holy Spirit I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.

Then I started eating non-vegetarian and non-vegetarian foods

I was on a no salt diet recommended by a vegan doctor. I could not sleep. I added some salted food and then was able to sleep. Later I added meat and fish, but mainly interested in grains, fruit and vegetables.

I watched NDTV, an Indian news channel. They sometimes talked about their deities. I thought these are false idols. Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. If I follow Jesus, I may not make as many bad guesses. I should not guess at all, only state was is fact. As I aged I got more memory errors. It is depressing.

 

[Siddhi Koli]

That is the best place to start.
For depression specifically, see a psychiatrist and find a church that prays for healing. (Not all of them do.)

No need now. My mother took me to a psychiatrist. I didn't say anything, I kept silent. Then went to another doctor who gave me sleeping pills. My back hurts sitting on a wheelchair.

I went to church.

I know and believe that Jesus the son of God healed some people but why am I not healed, some church is a hypocrite, who will pick me up and take me That means the family will not be able to pick me up.and I want salvation so I am sad and depressed.There is good news why the Holy Spirit appeared, He has something to tell me.

I don't judge the church but the Lord will do it on the last day but I found that tabor ashram online and gave them 100 rupees to heal me but the pastor was just talking about the bible and can't do anything. I was shocked
I was sad

 

[Sabertooth]

...gave them 100 rupees to heal me...

That is a scam.

 

[Siddhi Koli]

I was on a no salt diet recommended by a vegan doctor. I could not sleep. I added some salted food and then was able to sleep. Later I added meat and fish, but mainly interested in grains, fruit and vegetables.

I watched NDTV, an Indian news channel. They sometimes talked about their deities. I thought these are false idols. Jesus is the way, the truth and the life. If I follow Jesus, I may not make as many bad guesses. I should not guess at all, only state was is fact. As I aged I got more memory errors. It is depressing.

Hmm

 

[David's Harp]

Hi Siddhi, if you have accepted Jesus Christ as your Saviour, then you already have salvation. This is Good News! Hallelujah!

I'm sorry to hear of your troubles. Unfortunately, being a Christian doesn't always mean things will be easy, or that you will always be happy. You can read how Jesus' Apostles struggled in their lives. Even Jesus Himself was troubled in the flesh, and of course, think of the suffering He went through to pay the price for us.
But He comforts us in our troubles. As a Christian you have the Holy Spirit living inside of you! Isn't that wonderful? And not only does He comfort (John 14:16), He does a whole lot more, including guiding you to the Truth (John 16:13), helping you produce fruit (Galatians 5:22-23), and much more.

I think of Jesus' Sermon on the Mount and what are known as The Beatitudes in Matthew 5:3-11.
Maybe you are more blessed than you know Siddhi.

Dear Father, I pray again for your little one Siddhi. Let your Spirit guide her unto all Truth, while teaching and comforting her. I pray you will bring real sanctified Christians into her life, and that she fulfills her place in the Body of Christ. In the Most High Name of Jesus Christ I pray. Amen.

 

[dqhall]

No need now. My mother took me to a psychiatrist. I didn't say anything, I kept silent. Then went to another doctor who gave me sleeping pills. My back hurts sitting on a wheelchair.

I went to church.

I know and believe that Jesus the son of God healed some people but why am I not healed, some church is a hypocrite, who will pick me up and take me That means the family will not be able to pick me up.and I want salvation so I am sad and depressed.There is good news why the Holy Spirit appeared, He has something to tell me.

I don't judge the church but the Lord will do it on the last day but I found that tabor ashram online and gave them 100 rupees to heal me but the pastor was just talking about the bible and can't do anything. I was shocked
I was sad

Franklin D. Roosevelt was president of the United States during the 1930’s and 1940’s. He sat in chairs and a wheelchair after becoming paralyzed from polio in 1938.

Governor Greg Abbot of Texas was paralyzed after a tree fell on him the week he was studying for a lawyer exam. He became a lawyer, attorney general and a justice of the Texas Supreme Court. Now he is governor.

I do not think I could give money to a church and expect to get healed. Giving money to a church would not make me rich either. I have seen some church leaders spent money on fine clothes, large houses and private jets. These care little about the suffering poor.

 

[Siddhi Koli]

That is a scam.

I am a weight. Will anyone lift me?and I'm sorry. Because I said, some church is a hypocrite,I understand now that When I went to Tabor Ashram, water was sprinkled.That means I was baptized The

And the pastor was talking about the Bible and the priest was sprinkling water. Paid Rs 100 to the lady. The womens were singing, on the dj means on music .

 

[Siddhi Koli]

I am a weight. Will anyone lift me?and I'm sorry. Because I said, some church is a hypocrite,I understand now that When I went to Tabor Ashram, water was sprinkled.That means I was baptized The

And the pastor was talking about the Bible and the priest was sprinkling water. Paid Rs 100 to the lady. The womens were singing, on the dj means on music .

And priest was spreading incense

 

[Sabertooth]

And the pastor was talking about the Bible and the priest was sprinkling water. Paid Rs 100 to the lady. The womens were singing, on the dj means on music .

And priest was spreading incense

I am not sure what that means.

 

[Siddhi Koli]

I have been living alone since my grandmother died. Because she took care of me and my mother works as a nurse, took care of me when she came home. My sister and mother's family take care of me when my mother is not around.

I make my own food, tea, coffee, because I like kosher food. My family does not eat kosher food.

 

[Siddhi Koli]

I was a pure vegetarian because consuming non-vegetarian food is sinful.

I started remembering negative things, became irritable and vitamin deficient and Fell unconscious.

I was taken to Apollo Hospital and regained consciousness.

Then I went to another hospital. Doctor gave me sleeping pill because I can't sleep all night.
And was not hungry

When I saw the Holy Spirit I was afraid, I knew what the truth was. Then I started believing in monotheism.

Then I started eating vegetarian and non-vegetarian foods

The doctor prescribed a sleeping pill and an anti-depressant pill.(olanzapine and fluoxetine) I recovered completely.But falls asleep .
depression did not go away.

 

[Siddhi Koli]

Sitting on a wheel chair hurts my back .

 

[Siddhi Koli]

I am not sure what that means.

I mean it's the Catholic Church and I didn't know. I thought I would walk by using healing powers.I was sad.

 

[StillGods]

I am sorry to hear that happened.
it is very difficult when God does not heal us. I used to pray at night as a child for God to heal me but would wake each morning and I was not healed. I am not sure why God heals some people in this life and does not heal others, but I know God loves you very much, and that He has great compassion for what you are going through. He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will give you His grace to help you each day, His mercies are new every morning for you.
Are you able to tell the doctor about the pain in your back? maybe there is something that can be done to help with this?
I said a prayer for you.