- Apr 12, 2019
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I am talking about when I was a kid or teenager. I was bought up Catholic which I was afraid of the Religion. I use to hear about God and the Bible but Catholic's were mean to too. One old Catholic lady said that if I don't go to Church God would talk away my legs and make me a cripple.
Then I remembering hearing about saved Christian people and I though that I was too weird for God to accept me or was too judge me. I remembering watching Pastor's on TV and saying but God can't accept me because I always used his name in vain after which hearing swearing started to bother me. Thinking that if hearing swearing did not bother me I could come fully to Christ and that God would accept me. Heck I even broke the cross of Christ once and said I don't believe in God.
It was not until I left Catholic school and went though various programs for disability which am marked that I accepted Christ. However with the hearing swearing bothering me too the point that I left that Church again for 15 years going back to the ways of that I don't believe in God or I am not sure.
It was not until my sister nearly died and signs from God that I came back finding the right Church the first time, first attending life groups which I then found the one I like so I attend one and go to Sunday service weekly. I also now read the Bible more and even pray.
Just the other day walking some guy started to randomly swear and I looked down and say the word God written on the sidewalk. Because of this and my issues I know that he is still there and the idea that he is not right for me is the enemy telling me so.
My only issue now is years down the road I am afraid of backsliding again. I am praying that I don't but the Church I attend is so great, everyone is friendly there unlike my older Church were everyone was either teenagers or elderly. The age group of this Church younger people and people my age.
Then I remembering hearing about saved Christian people and I though that I was too weird for God to accept me or was too judge me. I remembering watching Pastor's on TV and saying but God can't accept me because I always used his name in vain after which hearing swearing started to bother me. Thinking that if hearing swearing did not bother me I could come fully to Christ and that God would accept me. Heck I even broke the cross of Christ once and said I don't believe in God.
It was not until I left Catholic school and went though various programs for disability which am marked that I accepted Christ. However with the hearing swearing bothering me too the point that I left that Church again for 15 years going back to the ways of that I don't believe in God or I am not sure.
It was not until my sister nearly died and signs from God that I came back finding the right Church the first time, first attending life groups which I then found the one I like so I attend one and go to Sunday service weekly. I also now read the Bible more and even pray.
Just the other day walking some guy started to randomly swear and I looked down and say the word God written on the sidewalk. Because of this and my issues I know that he is still there and the idea that he is not right for me is the enemy telling me so.
My only issue now is years down the road I am afraid of backsliding again. I am praying that I don't but the Church I attend is so great, everyone is friendly there unlike my older Church were everyone was either teenagers or elderly. The age group of this Church younger people and people my age.