But I still feel the pain. Am I not saved then?
I have gotten into suffering inside myself, and then I have been concerned about if I really am a Christian. What has helped me is I be still and know God is God, and trust Him to do what He wants with me. And I kind of had to do this all day, yesterday . . . or pretty much all day. But with loving, if I remember correctly, I got blessed out of that. And today I woke up much more ready for trusting and submitting to God and loving any and all people. And today was when my lady friend was ready to talk on the phone with me . . . while we are each in separate areas during this coronavirus thing.
I can’t hear the voice of God either.
All right > so you do understand that we trust that we can hear God's voice. And Jesus does say His sheep hear His voice. So, it is good we know this, even if we might not be so sure we really are doing this.
I think of this > the voice of a person is not the words someone says. Two very different people can say the exact same words to you. Each might say, "I love you." But because you know the difference between the people and their voices, what each one says can mean a very different thing to you. The con artist saying it has a different voice and meaning to you, than the one you know loves you and always has been there for you.
And we have 1 Peter 3:4 >
"rather let it be the hidden person of the heart, with the incorruptible beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is very precious in the sight of God." (1 Peter 3:4)
Consider and trust God, about how we can become, by having
"a gentle and quiet spirit" which is
"incorruptible" in its
"beauty". Jesus says He is
"gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." (in Matthew 11:28-30) I see a connection, here, how by being gentle and quiet we can be sharing with Jesus who is gentle and humble.
I see that this means God is quiet . . . never silent . . . but we can be the ones who are being unquiet so we do not hear His gentle and quiet voice of His love. There are things, then, to reject, which are not quiet and not love >
arguing and complaining > Philippians 2:13-16 < read and feed on this, please.
unforgiveness > Mark 11:25.
anger and wrath > we need to be
"swift to hear, slow to speak, slow to wrath; for the wrath of man does not produce the righteousness of God." (in James 1:19-20)
worry > Philippians 4:6-7.
fear > 1 John 4:18.
Possibly, right now, it can be good to read the above scriptures and offer your reading to God. Offer, I would say . . .
It’s like He is blocking my prayers.
I offer that God is not blocking our prayer for you. And, better than this, our Apostle Paul says >
"Who is he who condemns? It is Christ who died, and furthermore is also risen, who is even at the right hand of God, who also makes intercession for us." (Romans 8:34)
So, of course, you might have question about if our prayers are being heard. Well, Jesus plainly tells us to love and pray for people, right? So, even if we ourselves might feel we are not important enough or right enough to have God hear our prayer for you, we have Jesus praying for us, and His prayer for us can result in our prayer amounting to good for you and others.