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Naive, man, naive.
So far half the people wishing me a happy birthday are found on this forum. I had lunch alone and I went to the movies alone.
I really frickin hate God for making me as undesirable as possible just so He can feel good about Himself. He makes all of you fearfully and wonderfully made while He just slapped me together on His lunch break.
Here's to 25 lousy years of life on Earth.
Why do you think this is? Is it because of your autism? Have you tried reaching out to the autistic community? There do exist dating sites and general social sites for autistic people. That might be a fruitful pursuit.
If it makes you feel any better, I'm not much better regarding my life. My ability to connect with people is poor and really do not have any friends. Even though others reach out, my depression, general anger and other mysterious mental problems prevents me from seeking friends out.
I do like this forum though. Gives me some sociability yet I don't really have to engage anyone on any deep level.
If I was a black guy who had a hard time making and keeping friends, would you recommend that I go reach out to the black community?
I'm sorry about that. I truly understand how you must feel. Textbook Asperger's and all the curses with it, depression, anxiety, suspected C-PTSD/Borderline, school bullying, workplace bullying, over medication, patient abuse, having parents with zero patience and having to be the one to teach your parents patience, living in the alcoholic capital of the province, having to be on welfare, working with garbage at a minimum wage job, still living with your parents, people giving you crap in spite of your best efforts to reform yourself, having little to no real friends, no emotional support from your family...
I agree. My fear is that one day I'll overstay my welcome and get thrown out. It's happened to me countless time in my life so I see it as inevitable. Best enjoy it while I still can.
I don't see how being black is comparable to being autistic. One makes you different neurologically. Black people don't have inherent mental differences compared to other races.
I'm not going to lie. When I heard that you are not able to make facial expressions, it had me worried. My knowledge about autism is not the best, but are you able to fake facial expressions? Learn to make them a habit?
I'm not trying to scare you or anything, just giving honest thoughts from someone who most likely isn't in the autistic spectrum. Although you're probably already aware of this.
While I can make facial expressions I do have trouble making eye contact with people, and know how it puts many people off. So I always have to force myself to look into other's eyes.
Yeah. As for me, I'm suspected of being autistic, have a lot of masochistic/sadism (which in my mind is hyper empathy problems) problems (self-harm and inner hatred, extreme mood swings.. etc) and always assume that people view me as dirt. Which is a mindset I'm trying to change. Because a lot of it is simply not true, but sadly my mindset will always swing in that direction if I'm not careful.
I also have trouble processing language. While I mostly speak normally I can and often jumble up my sentences. Especially if I have to describe something, which makes people think you're stupid. Even if you can think fast in your mind.
Maybe. I think the mods are understanding though. If you have mental problems they tend to factor that in. I have a feeling you'll be around here for a while.
Honestly, you should make an "ask an autistic person" thread.
Could be really informative and interesting. People can make other "ask a" threads for whatever problem they have too.
So far half the people wishing me a happy birthday are found on this forum. I had lunch alone and I went to the movies alone. So far, no happy birthday wishes from my father, sister or any other family member miles away from me.
I really frickin hate God for making me as undesirable as possible just so He can feel good about Himself. He makes all of you fearfully and wonderfully made while He just slapped me together on His lunch break.
Here's to 25 lousy years of life on Earth.
I'm sorry about that. I truly understand how you must feel. Textbook Asperger's and all the curses with it, depression, anxiety, suspected C-PTSD/Borderline, school bullying, workplace bullying, over medication, patient abuse, constant rejection everywhere I go, having parents with zero patience and having to be the one to teach your parents patience, living in the alcoholic capital of the province, having to be on welfare, working with garbage at a minimum wage job, still living with your parents, people giving you crap in spite of your best efforts to reform yourself, having little to no real friends, no emotional support from your family...
It does stuff to you. I am not Superman who is invulnerable to harm. I'm part of the 66% of aspies who thought about suicide, part of the 35% who attempted suicide, part of the 1/3 who developed mental problems...
People tell me that I'm not alone in my suffering but with autism, that's exactly the case. You are alone with no one to have your back because you do not have the social intuition that so many people take for granted.
Anyways, depression aside...
I'd like to thank you all for wishing me a happy birthday. It really means a lot to me. Props to CodyFaith for making that comic. I saw it as a homage to my cartooning career on this forum.
Now who wants some cake?
The point is that I shouldn't have to be segregated like that.
I am capable of making facial expressions but it takes extra effort to do so. I'm mostly poker faced with some smiles when laughing. Most can do it automatically but for me its physically draining and I have to be a fine actor to do so.
I feel the same way, dude. My personal view is how one thinks and views the world is very dependent on how one was brought up. You'll find that there are many serial killers who had very screwed up childhoods to the point where they are not even capable of empathy anymore.
Maybe. There's still things I'm discovering myself. The more I read about Aspergers, the more of my flaws seem to be linked to it. A lot of things I thought was normal growing up turns out to be linked to this darn condition.
You guys can feel free to ask me any questions regarding my condition.
So far half the people wishing me a happy birthday are found on this forum. I had lunch alone and I went to the movies alone. So far, no happy birthday wishes from my father, sister or any other family member miles away from me.
I really frickin hate God for making me as undesirable as possible just so He can feel good about Himself. He makes all of you fearfully and wonderfully made while He just slapped me together on His lunch break.
Here's to 25 lousy years of life on Earth.
Np man, was fun.Thanks, guys! This means a lot to me!
I am madly in love with the comic you made me, CodyFaith! I love that extra effort you put in for me!
I saw your post brother. You are well loved here. It's always a safe place for you here, and of course my inbox is always open if you ever need to vent. I'm a good listener and have big shoulders. I hope your day turned around for youDeleted as it was uncalled for.
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