What's on your mind? (44)

I'll have to get back to you on that one

 

We would have SO much convo!!!


My friend looked SO amazing at her baby shower. Seriously, she is just amazing! And her body is even crazy amazing.

I want to look at that when I'm pregnant.

in my dreams.

 

That would be lovely right about now

 

Aw. Had I known I would have shared.

This made me go through my own reps. First time I ever did it, that is, go all the way back to the beginning. Lol. You know, I don't think I ever realized you could give and receive 'reps' back then come to think of it.

So far my rep convos with Chuck are probably the best. A few others come close though. Man, going through them all, there are a lot of CFers I really miss.

 

More friends pulling away from help when they need it the most. Nothing I can do except watch and pray.

Blah. It's hard to let things go when it's good friends.

 

this is so frustrating

 

That sucks. Admittedly I can be that person more often than not - I just like dealing with things on my own. Its only been recently that I started being able to reach out to friends to say, "I need to talk." or "I need prayer."

Just let them know you're there for them and praying for them. That will mean worlds to them, even if its not something they can reach out for right now.

 

yep

 

Looks like it's time to jump on the Penguins bandwagon...

 

This game went from a blowout to a game cause we forgot how to make shots.

 

Steve told me that when computer issues get frustrating, it's best to just walk away from them and retry again later. So I'm gonna take his advice. For whatever, I updated it to Windows 7 64 bit and now I can't download Office or even play Age of Empires. So there's some issues I can't figure out.

 

I find myself going through many changes mentally right now.

My emotional sadomasochism is becoming stronger again. Although the way I look at it and perceive it is changing and gradually becoming more intricate and mature. At the same time, my mind is starting to accept other aspects of life. Such as loving others and caring for others. My mind is rebelling against the rampant s&m worldview I've had ever since I lost my Christian faith. I'm becoming disgusted with how I viewed other people. There was a push when I became an atheist to be darker, and I don't like it and I can't pretend to be content with it anymore.

I also find myself to be more and more withdrawn from conversing with other people. I don't really enjoy it anymore, and would rather have my solitude, at least for the time being..

I don't know what I want in life, but I sure do know that I've been doing a poor job of expressing what I may want in life, thus far. Hopefully I'm moving to a more successful and honest direction.

 

Looking for to next week. Maybe I'll be able to squeeze in some beach time.

 

That would be cool Or warm. it is the beach

 

It'll definitely be warm. But the chance of rain is probably high, sooo...we'll see.

 

There is always time for beach time ! I try and do this as much as possible!

 

Gah, this hangover is amazing. I slept so much today, and I'm still tired. For some reason I'm liking this hangover...

 

I'm gonna try to go to bed, even though I'm baffled. I dislike being baffled. I must solve the mystery

 

Good policy! I'm definitely going to try and have as many beach days as possible this summer.

 

Same here. Although I would stay up until I solved it or collapsed...