Are all Christians accepted into heaven or are there golden rules? I am a sinner, and though I'm sorry for my sins I accept the fact that I am just going to sin again. Having anxiety disorder I always worry that I am not going to make it to heaven. My depression makes me feel like a bad person who is condemned.
"If your right eye causes you to sin, tear it out and throw it away. For it is better that you lose one of your members than that your whole body be thrown into hell."
-Mark
I'm guilty of looking at girls lustfully from time to time. And I accept the fact that it'll happen again, even though I wish that wasn't the case and I'm sorry. Though it seems that will get me into hell.
Stuff like that gets to me.
Might I make a suggestion?
I know a little of that anxiety. But this salvation thing is not about you, my brother. It's about Jesus. Jesus is what God has done to change the rules.
Without Jesus you'd be dead on arrival. That fact doesn't change. Except for Jesus your whole life is death on a stick. That doesn't change. Every sin you make, you're compelled to realize once again, you can't do this thing.
But ... you're with Jesus. That changes the rules. He's died a criminal's death for you. For your salvation.
That anxiety you're feeling may be your disorder over-obsessing on this issue, yes. But it's not solely that. It's really a magnification of a terrifying "right-order" anxiety we all feel about it. Paul describes it
in himself in Romans 7:14-end-of-chapter. He sees this sinful nature creeping through everything he touches. And the only answer -- "Thanks be to God, through Jesus Christ!"
So your obsessing is a great opportunity to focus intensely on the solution to this problem. That you're entrusting yourself to another Person -- the Person of the Son of God. Go to Him. Remind yourself in prayer to Him that you're relying on Him to get you through this mess you make -- and I make -- and everyone here makes. You're relying on Jesus to clean you up, to love you. And in one sense Jesus has already done that. If you've relied on Jesus, He's already declared you "not guilty." He's died for you.
You can't walk this stuff perfectly. But He can. Lean on Him, He can carry you through. And live through the leaning. It won't make you perfect instantly. It's only a start. But it's headed for total glory (Rom 8:29-eoc).