Originally posted by DaveKerwin
I was receptive (AT LEAST IN PART) because I no longer wanted to be separated from God.
But why didn't you? Before you were saved you were a child of wrath who was at emnity with God. That means you were His enemy and He was yours. Your fallen nature despised the righteousness of God. I don't mean you sat there despising God. I just mean that you nature was totally unrighteous, and His was totally righteous.
2 Corinthians 6:14
And what communion has light with darkness?
1 John 1:5
This is the message which we have heard from Him and declare to you, that
God is light and
in Him is no darkness at all.
Look at this progression:
John 1:5
And the light
(Jesus) shines in the darkness, and the darkness
(mankind) did not comprehend it.
*italics are my addition for clarity
We were the darkness that did not acknowledge Jesus. Look:
Ephesians 5:8
For
you were once darkness, but now you are light in the Lord.
That does not say, "you were once
in the darkness." It says we
were the darkness.
I heard that my sins separated me and that I was unforgiven.
But it is God that made you receptive to what you heard. Alot of people have heard the Gospel who will never embrace it. Again, does that mean there is something special about you that made you more receptive? When were you saved? I don't mean literally; I mean theologically.
Ephesians 1:3-6
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ,<SUP> </SUP>just as
He chose us in Him BEFORE THE FOUNDATION OF THE WORLD, that we should be holy and without blame before Him in love,<SUP> </SUP>having predestined us to adoption as sons by Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the good pleasure of His will,<SUP> </SUP>to the praise of the glory of His grace, by which He made us accepted in the Beloved.
What was our spiritual disposition at the time that God actually regenerates us and adopts us into His family:
Ephesians 2:1-6
And
you He made alive, who were dead in trespasses and sins,<SUP> </SUP>in which you once walked according to the course of this world, according to the prince of the power of the air, the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience,<SUP> </SUP>among whom also we all once conducted ourselves in the lusts of our flesh, fulfilling the desires of the flesh and of the mind, and were by nature children of wrath, just as the others. But God, who is rich in mercy,
because of His great love with which He loved us,<SUP> </SUP>
EVEN WHEN WE WERE DEAD in trespasses,
MADE US ALIVE together with Christ (by grace you have been saved),<SUP> </SUP>and raised us up together, and made us sit together in the heavenly places in Christ Jesus
We were dead, Dave. You couldn't hear anything. You were dead to God. The reason you heard was because God made you hear. The reason you are saved is because God's grace doesn't work on the off chance that "you choose Him." God's grace is effectual. It does exactly what it sets out to do. It doesn't return to Him empty. All those whom have been given to Jesus
are saved. This is what Scripture says over and over. It is God who chooses you. Don't let you pride keep you from admitting that God's love for you is the reason you are saved, not because "you chose God."
I didn't want that. So I gave God my faith.
You had no faith to give Dave. You were dead. You were God's enemy. You hated God. Look:
Romans 3:10-18
As it is written:
"There is none righteous, no, not one;
<SUP> </SUP>There is none who understands;
THERE IS NONE WHO SEEKS AFTER GOD.
<SUP> </SUP>They have all turned aside;
They have together become unprofitable;
There is none who does good, no, not one."
<SUP> </SUP>"Their throat is an open tomb;
With their tongues they have practiced deceit";
"The poison of asps is under their lips";
<SUP> </SUP>"Whose mouth is full of cursing and bitterness."
<SUP> </SUP>"Their feet are swift to shed blood;
<SUP> </SUP>Destruction and misery are in their ways;
<SUP> </SUP>And the way of peace they have not known."
<SUP> </SUP>"There is no fear of God before their eyes."
Did God have something to do with it? Absolutely.
God had everything to do with it.
Yes, I believed the gospel the very first time I heard it. I could not believe I never heard it before then.
That's because God chose when to bring you to a knowledge of Himself. It was God's design that you hear and believe the Gospel when you did. It wasn't chance Dave.
I had always figured God existed, but was not sure, and didn't have any idea of what he really did for me.
This is why all people are held accountable, even the pigmy on the island who was never visited by a missionary:
Romans 1:18-23
For the wrath of God is revealed from heaven against all ungodliness and unrighteousness of men, who suppress the truth in unrighteousness,<SUP> </SUP>
because what may be known of God is manifest in them, for God has shown it to them.<SUP> </SUP>For since the creation of the world HIS INVISIBLE ATTRIBUTES ARE CLEARLY SEEN, being understood by the things that are made, EVEN HIS ETERNAL POWER AND GODHEAD, SO THAT THEY ARE WITHOUT EXCUSE,<SUP> </SUP>because, although they knew God, they did not glorify Him as God, nor were thankful, but became futile in their thoughts, and their foolish hearts were darkened.<SUP> </SUP>Professing to be wise, they became fools,<SUP> </SUP>and changed the glory of the incorruptible God into an image made like corruptible man--and birds and four-footed animals and creeping things.
So after hearing about it, I prayed that day by myself and got right with God.
You got yourself right with God by praying? You were fallen until God changed your heart. He didn't change your heart
after you prayed. You heard and believed the Gospel and prayed
because He had saved you.
In terms of my specific salvation, it was a combination of things. I believe it was all orchastrated by God, yet dependant upon the nature of this world.
But God created, manages, and defines this world???
I hope these truths make sense to you and you concentrate and meditate on them. God does not work in "could have's" or "what if's." Your scenario of what might have happened is irrelevent because God is God and He will bring about His Will, regardless of what His creation does. To assume that your salvation was part of God's plan but His Divine plan was subject to so many variables depletes the sovereignty of God. The truth is that God saves us
in spite of us.
God bless