No matter what at the end of the day I am always blamed for everything. It doesn't matter what my intentions are, why I have to do what I have to do, at the end of the day I am seen as the problem.
- A few months ago, I prayed asking Jesus Christ about my significant and my former best friend. I had a dream where I saw my former best friend on top of someone having sex. Thankfully I was spared seeing some of what took place. Obviously seeing this have had its effect on me.
- About 2 weeks ago or more Jesus Christ showed me where one of my relatives (My adopted mother's brother) who took part in my abuse was coming over my home with my father. He had a sinister look/smirk on his face and in his hand was something he was bringing for me a baby bassinet. This reinforces the reason why I have not and cannot allow my children to associate with members of my family. This man was buying a gift for my baby. If I allow my children to be around him and other family members I risk their personal safety.
-If I leave my family permanently they will come after me, demanding to go home with them or to be apart of my life. My leaving will be used to suggest the fact that I am mentally ill, have no idea what I am doing, and need mental treatment. As one can see the choices I have are limited.
Additionally the people involved in my trafficking has been doing this to me from I was a baby, they have a lot of money and influence. They have had control over my entire life.
Despite the above, I am blamed for 'abandoning' my significant other.
- A few months ago, I prayed asking Jesus Christ about my significant and my former best friend. I had a dream where I saw my former best friend on top of someone having sex. Thankfully I was spared seeing some of what took place. Obviously seeing this have had its effect on me.
- About 2 weeks ago or more Jesus Christ showed me where one of my relatives (My adopted mother's brother) who took part in my abuse was coming over my home with my father. He had a sinister look/smirk on his face and in his hand was something he was bringing for me a baby bassinet. This reinforces the reason why I have not and cannot allow my children to associate with members of my family. This man was buying a gift for my baby. If I allow my children to be around him and other family members I risk their personal safety.
-If I leave my family permanently they will come after me, demanding to go home with them or to be apart of my life. My leaving will be used to suggest the fact that I am mentally ill, have no idea what I am doing, and need mental treatment. As one can see the choices I have are limited.
Additionally the people involved in my trafficking has been doing this to me from I was a baby, they have a lot of money and influence. They have had control over my entire life.
Despite the above, I am blamed for 'abandoning' my significant other.
