what are you feeling right now? (24)

[Tempura]

However Jesus has brought me lots of good life. i've become much more compassionate and caring for the hurts of others over the years that i have suffered depression. Depression opens us up for God's good life to come in and rescue us. Yet unlike depression God's love stays.

Yes. God's love, just a little nugget of it, so often shines in many directions. It doesn't only comfort us, but it makes us love others more as well. And whatever our minds and hearts throw at us to kick us when we're already down (like you said: hopelessness, despair, grief, guilt, shame, doubt and unbelief and regrets) real love never bothers us, it doesn't trip us, it builds something and there's always assurance and confidence in it, there's nothing wrong about it, no lie can ever twist it into something else, love in action is undeniable and it penetrates every wall we can have against it. It comforts, assures, encourages and even gives us joy if we can love and comfort someone. More and more.

If only I'd get to the point where I could be grateful about my own misery while I'm in it! I can look back now and be grateful, but if I'm in it, I find that I'm still a rookie. God has plenty to teach me.

 

[gerbilwoman]

Happy Birthday @Press On!

 

[Press On]

Happy Birthday @Press On!

Thank you so much! God bless!

 

[Jeshu]

i did crash yesterday and my good morning turned into a bad afternoon. i ended up in bed a 8pm exhausted and down.

Not feeling too bad at the moment. Still downish but nowhere near the oppressive kind i got yesterday. The depression is quiet mild right now.

wishing everyone a good day.

 

[Tempura]

Morning Jeshu. Glad you're feeling less bad!

2:50am here, can't sleep, playing Civilization V, thinking about stuff.

 

[Jeshu]

Morning Jeshu. Glad you're feeling less bad!

2:50am here, can't sleep, playing Civilization V, thinking about stuff.

Are you enjoying the game? i've basically stopped playing computer games after doom 3 came out but i do still collect games for the grand kids to play.

Thinking about interesting stuff i hope.

 

[Tempura]

Are you enjoying the game? i've basically stopped playing computer games after doom 3 came out but i do still collect games for the grand kids to play.

Thinking about interesting stuff i hope.

Yeah I am enjoying, to an extent. There was a time when I didn't care about anything fun, including games and I don't like a lot about modern gaming industry. But Civ games are nice, all of them are probably very cheap now, you can play them at your own pace, and they always force me to think and plan a bit. Even if I don't feel like starting, it starts getting interesting. Helps to energize the mind, and I can do something else on the side.

Thinking about God and what I have to learn in faith, and certain people. It's interesting to me!

 

[Jeshu]

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Thinking about God and what I have to learn in faith, and certain people. It's interesting to me!

Yes i have often pondered on God using people, as well as nature and His word of course in our hearts and how that works. Sanctification is a noble process which can humble us no end.

i've seen God at work in a lot of people and marvelled often at the things i learned from them. CF is a good place to see God (and satan,) at work, the battle lines have been drawn up between must, do and ruling over others and love, caring and sharing with each other. An epic battle

 

[chaoticfirefly]

Good thing you have a doctor's appointment! My back was bad when I was only 25 or so, and some conditions don't ask for our age. Also, as you know already, the positions in which we keep our bodies for long times, be it sitting, sleeping etc. have an effect, as well as certain repeating movements that favor one side to the other, certain quick movements plus all the things we don't even think of. I can't even count how many of my friends have back issues, and they're all different ones.

Hope it gets sorted out and good luck to your semester, even if it seems tough!

That's true! I slouch a lot when I sit, and since starting school, I don't move around much except to run to class or across campus to work or the library, where I typically sit for an extra few hours to do work.

P.T.S.D can cause lots of stress and stress can cause physical pain. When i struggle with stress then i always get back aches.

i hope you will be able to keep following classes especially if this semester is going to be a hard one.

All the best.

Yeah. I'm hoping it's not that. Might just be poor positions, hopefully.

I’m under a tremendous amount of stress right now, and guess where I’m hurting......lol! And this from a guy who goes to the gym nearly every day. Ok, ok, I know. I’ll be 66 tomorrow; may have something to do with it . Had to knock off the gym visits for about 10 days but slowly starting back & doing much better. Had to take a few muscle relaxants in the meantime.

Remember the trepidation you felt when last semester began? Turns out portions were actually fun and challanging. You identified your strong and weak points...all a part of growing and moving forward.

I have no doubt you will do well this time, too. As far as the back pain, that affects practically every move you make. I’m glad you are seeing a doctor. That will put your mind at ease at least knowing the cause, and effective targeted treatment can begin. Prayers.

I haven't gone to the gym in a looong time. Way to lazy now.

Oh happy birthday! Hope it was a good one!

Yeah, that's true!

Thanks!

 

[chaoticfirefly]

I'm tired. I've been going to bed earlier and earlier now. I do like my classes despite the stress I'm going to be going through. My professors are pretty cool and nice. There's just going to be so, so much reading and writing, at least one of them is more participation in class and debating ethics, morality and things like that because it's a philosophy class.

This week, like the coming weeks, I have to read the front page of a lot of different newspapers (BBC, NYT, and a few others) for the quizzes, and then the international pages on New York Times for my International Relations class and get ready for the first major essay for my Writ class. At least Intro to Ethics is just notes right now.

 

[sea5763]

Thanks Mikha’el

 

[.Mikha'el.]

Thanks Mikha’el

anytime

 

[sea5763]

anytime

Cool

 

[Press On]

I'm tired. I've been going to bed earlier and earlier now. I do like my classes despite the stress I'm going to be going through. My professors are pretty cool and nice. There's just going to be so, so much reading and writing, at least one of them is more participation in class and debating ethics, morality and things like that because it's a philosophy class.

This week, like the coming weeks, I have to read the front page of a lot of different newspapers (BBC, NYT, and a few others) for the quizzes, and then the international pages on New York Times for my International Relations class and get ready for the first major essay for my Writ class. At least Intro to Ethics is just notes right now.

Your tone in this post is noticeably more optimistic than in your original one. Good sign.

How we feel physically/mentally at any given time has a bearing on how we handle things that come up in day to day life.

I happen to be sitting in a dermatologist’s office right now having yet ANOTHER skin cancer removed. I was quite bummed about it yesterday though I’ve been through this many times before in the last 34 years. But, now, as I sit here, it’s not so bad except that it has made my wallet $218 lighter!

You will do just fine. I’m excited for you!

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling okay today! Finally a day where the depression has bitten yet, lets hope it outlasts the day. i have been cycling a lot faster the last month which isn't a good sign but there isn't much i can do about that.

How is everyone else?

 

[chaoticfirefly]

I'm doing okay today still, a little annoyed with my co-workers. I was doing all the work, plus taking customers and online orders after the guy stationed there left, while all three of them were at the other pod and talking. My manager, after coming out of the office to grab another register yelled at them to help me.

One rolled her eyes and said, "Fine. I guess I'll vaccuum then." and he was like, "One of you go help Firefly at the other pod, she's currently helping a line of students get their online orders to them." It took them a bit of time before they actually came over to help me. I nearly tossed a bag of four nursing text books at one of them had the audacity to join me in the back and say, "Do you still need help?"

Do you not see the four-five students standing out there? Ugh. I told her to find the textbooks for the ones on the athletics scholarships. 18 year olds have no idea how to work do they? I don't want to sound like That, but it feels like anyone I encounter under a certain age, just has no idea how to work or haven't worked until they got to college, which isn't bad, but there's an obvious difference. And of course, not everyone under the age of 23 is like this, since there are also new workers who are overexcited to help out.

Otherwise, things are good. I'm trying to find around news paywalls because while NYT's student discount of 4/month isn't bad, having to sign up for a few others does add up.

Apparently there's a difference between a Nation and a Country. I missed what they were, but I'm sure google can help with that since I need to re-write my notes so they're more organized.

 

[Tempura]

Great that you're having a good morning Jeshu!

Chaotic, some kids are just either too sheltered or spoiled. But they'll learn. (because they have to)

 

[Jeshu]

Feeling unwell at 3.30am in the morning. i awoke a hour ago feeling sick still not over it. Luckily my mood has been really good so that is something at least.

 

[Tempura]

At least you have a good mood. About feeling sick, how possible do you think that you're suffering from some mild poisoning? I remember previously how it was something in the water making you sick, and things weren't right in your blood tests. How's your eating? Oh and good morning.

 

[sea5763]

Your tone in this post is noticeably more optimistic than in your original one. Good sign.

How we feel physically/mentally at any given time has a bearing on how we handle things that come up in day to day life.

I happen to be sitting in a dermatologist’s office right now having yet ANOTHER skin cancer removed. I was quite bummed about it yesterday though I’ve been through this many times before in the last 34 years. But, now, as I sit here, it’s not so bad except that it has made my wallet $218 lighter!

You will do just fine. I’m excited for you!

That’s sad that you have skin cancer