I should technically be working on a paper, but I came by to check on someone here. Of course, he's still self-loathing and miserable and ashamed, thinking that he's going to Hell for his sins. And of course one of them is looking at gay inappropriate contentography, so if he came here he'd probably get half the people telling him it's ok to go find a boyfriend (which is practically impossible for him due to his social awkwardness and vertigo issues), or enjoy his inappropriate content (which will just make him feel guilty because he has very little understanding of Christianity and just feels guilt from legalism all the time).
I hate seeing him suffer internally. I'm better from my struggles, mostly, why can't he start feeling better? Why can't he stop feeling like he's "damned to Hell", and that homosexuality (which he hasn't even technically engaged in) isn't going to make him go to Hell instantly, and that he is already saved and forgiven?!?! It's like every bit of advice, from "Yep, you should hate yourself" to, "No, go and touch to as much gay stuff as you want to and invite some other guys over to your apartment for an orgy!" Or anything in between (which is what most people tell him), just seems to go one ear and out the other. Like he forgets it and goes back to being miserable.
I know that I'm not responsible for him and freedom and autonomy and all that, but why can't he get better? Am I a bad person for wanting to intervene in his life, even though I can't, so that he can stop feeling ashamed and walk a godly path?
my point is, please pray for this guy.