what are you feeling right now? (11)

[Criada]

not sure...too tired...not wanting to feel

Sometimes numb is good...
Praying

 

[Criada]

I'm feeling sick to my stomach (praying its just that) Don't wanna think what it "could" be.

I am not overwhelmed as I am not sure if I will be able to get my meds as I am in Idaho and my insurance is for California.
And I need my meds.

Praying, sis

 

[Criada]

Help. Life is taking a toll on me. I really wish I can turn my whole situation around in a snap. Like a domino effect, this thing is affecting my whole life bit by bit and it seems it's not planning to stop. It has affected my mental health, friendships, education, reputation, career, diet, confidence/self-esteem/motivation/personality, reputation, health, faith, appearance..... everything. I have a month to go through and within less than a month, who knows how much more damage I have to go through. I am already extremely lagging in critical work. Everything just seems to everyone as excuses no matter how much honest and sincere I am. More bad false rumours seems to be spreading despite any actions I do. People don't even have the sympathy when they already talk things behind me... as well they do it straight upfront when I'm around. I feel like I'm living in a realistic hell on Earth. I can't stand living. I really can't. I can't stand moving on. Too much pain. Too much regret and suffering. I already had made a huge prayer and waiting for a miracle or relief but as of yet, no sign. When will the Lord save me? He knows I've been needing help for the past 2 months. This is the worst situation I have ever encountered and it continues to devour me in all aspects. I don't know how much I can take for a month and on top of that post-trauma period. This is even worse than those years I spent in silent depression because I am constantly attacked with too much anxiety and paranoia.

I don't know what's going on, sweetie, but I'm sorry it's so tough.
Sounds as though you have an end in sight though... hang in there and keep your eyes on that.
Praying

 

[Criada]

Very good. I need a "C" in my last course to graduate, and I'm on pace for a "B"!

Yay!!!
Well done - keep it up!

 

[Criada]

I've been feeling confused and unsure what to do. May the Lord guide me. I'm feeling quite thankful. I love you God!


I really dig the Psalms lately...


Psalm 27

Praying for clear guidance and a knowledge of where He wants you to go

 

[srjoanna]

I really, really , reeeeeally need your prayers, please

Im going through a really painful time right now and to think that was it.. no. Ive got all the rest too.

I just feel,like.. I brought all of this upon myself and I am to blame for being in this situation. I dont know WHY I get caught up in these issues.. but they find me..I dont go to them. If that makes sense. Its happened so many times. You would think it gets easier...but it never does. Its worse because I remember ALL the other times too.

I really wish I could wake up tomorrow and not remember a thing. Wouldnt that be so good? I wish

I know what I said doesnt make much sense..and for that, forgive me.

Please..remember me in your prayers..I will be forever grateful.

Much love to all of you.. and ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

 

[RuthD]

I am praying for you all.

As for me I am feeling hopeful today. It wasn't always that way.

 

[aflower4God]

I really, really , reeeeeally need your prayers, please

Im going through a really painful time right now and to think that was it.. no. Ive got all the rest too.

I just feel,like.. I brought all of this upon myself and I am to blame for being in this situation. I dont know WHY I get caught up in these issues.. but they find me..I dont go to them. If that makes sense. Its happened so many times. You would think it gets easier...but it never does. Its worse because I remember ALL the other times too.

I really wish I could wake up tomorrow and not remember a thing. Wouldnt that be so good? I wish

I know what I said doesnt make much sense..and for that, forgive me.

Please..remember me in your prayers..I will be forever grateful.

Much love to all of you.. and ((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))

Hi there sweet sister Joanna I mised you and I started to worry about you. KNOW that I am constently praying for you and I hope that you feel better soon soon you are such a precious person with a BIG heart.
PLEASE keep on posting. ((((((((((((MANY BIG HUGS))))))))))))

 

[aflower4God]

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[.Iona.]

Really, really annoyed.

 

[aflower4God]

I am a HORRIBLE person who should be
I am not looking for pity but I state the fact it was pointed out to me by this guy in their own way. I don't deserve to live. I am horrible, certainly not an angel that is for sure.

 

[Colleen1]

HeHe Kewl That almost looks like me: Well, it will when
i finally get my SPLITS all the way to the floor. -
Gotta do my Stretches more, as right now I can only do
60% of these, as well as they:

Here's what I've done so far today: #474

Thanks. Neat; good luck with your skating. God bless

 

[kc990]

I don't know what's going on, sweetie, but I'm sorry it's so tough.
Sounds as though you have an end in sight though... hang in there and keep your eyes on that.
Praying

Thank you Criada for your prayer and response! I really hope something can take some effect in a good way with your intentions.

Also, the reason why I have somewhat an "ending" to this, is because after the next month, I wouldn't have the need to tolerate the people and the hostile environment I have to deal with everyday. It's goodbye to all of that... hopefully.

What really matters at the moment is if I will be able to handle it all (the pain and personal attacks on me), and on top of that finish what needs to be done by that short amount of time. I am in such a critical state and position right now. I have lost more (confidence/self-esteem/etc.) than what I gained since I was able to get myself out of depression last year. Too much stress. Too much anxiety. Too much problems. But I'm going to try..

I am a HORRIBLE person who should be
I am not looking for pity but I state the fact it was pointed out to me by this guy in their own way. I don't deserve to live. I am horrible, certainly not an angel that is for sure.

Hey Flower... Who is this guy to tell what kind of person you are? He is only one person. And that is just his opinion, his opinions can change. He might've just had a bad day. God never said you were all those things. Remember who you are in God, not who you are to everyone else.

But also, I don't want to undermine how you're feeling about this and your sensitivity and I know it hurts. And this is not a reply of pity.. it's because I understand how you're feeling and I care.

 

[.Mikha'el.]

My eye is blood shot, and there's a former online friend I really miss sometimes.

 

[TomCS]

...convicted beyond the shadow of a doubt, and unable to turn away from those sins.

 

[Noxot]

everything looks like destroyed ruins.

 

[Mr. Runningfish]

Why do I feel so lame right now? So lame. My problems are so insignificant. Why do I even worry? Why do I bother? ::

 

[Colleen1]

Why do I feel so lame right now? So lame. My problems are so insignificant. Why do I even worry? Why do I bother? ::

you're problems aren't insignificant; none of us are or our problems

 

[Jeshu]

everything looks like destroyed ruins.

The good thing is those destroyed ruins can be rebuild, so your life can be rebuild as well.

Be of good courage Jesus is a Master Builder

 

[Perhaps Today]

I am a HORRIBLE person who should be
I am not looking for pity but I state the fact it was pointed out to me by this guy in their own way. I don't deserve to live. I am horrible, certainly not an angel that is for sure.

You're not a horrible person by an means. Don't believe this person. You are cared about my friend.