was pressured but said NO to abortion. my story

[lostndown]

yea, i was raped in febuary and thot i had a misc. in may, but come to find out, i didnt. so i told her and she said, "you're 20, were raped 4 mnths ago, and this baby is by rape. u cant take care of a baby. get rid of it, so u wont have to raise a baby. it'll be over fast." i said absolutely NOT.

I LOVE my baby sooooo much. im definately keeping my baby, so abortion is not an option for me and never has been, so im excited im keeping the baby. i am 19 wks along which = 4 months. i am going for my first obgyn appt next week on monday prolly. i am praying it's a girl. i want a babygirl... pray that baby stays healthy and im fine too. thanks!

my friend (16 1/2) tried pressuring me into having an abortion, just cuz i was raped and this baby resulted from it. but im old enough to make my own decision for me/my baby and im keeping the baby and am gonna be a good mommy! i'm scared but everything's gonna be ok. i am personally not for abortions at all, but i dont judge anyone who's had one.

I g2g to bed cuz it's after 12am and im really tired, but u can pm me if u wanna talk to me. thanks. i'm mad i am pregnant by rape but i can't go back but God is gonna work everything out for the best for me and my baby, and i'm going to be a good mom to this baby!


Have a good night and thanks for listening to my story, even tho i didn't have an abortion.

~michelle ~

 

[woman.at.the.well]

God bless you lostndown for this miracle story. You are truly a blessing to me and I know an immense inspiration for others. I admire you more than I could put into words for your bravery and for doing the right thing even in the spite of such horrible circumstances.

You are a wonderful young woman and I know that God is going to do awesome things in your life because of your love for Him and your amazing attitude.

Love, hugs, peace, and blessings to you precious sister in Christ!
WATW

 

[New Creation]

Hey lostndown, you are carrying a miracle! God can make good from ANYTHING, can't He?

I just want to encourage you- one of my closest friends was in the same situation- she was raped by 3 men one night and she became pregnant.
Her little boy Daniel is now a year and a half old and is the joy of her life!

 

[lostndown]

wow, thats tough. thank you for encouragement. i feel better bout the baby now hearing that. im scared but im ok. i felt a 2nd kick tonite and baby's moving more.

i have bad nightmares sometimes and its scary, bout the rape.... i just wanna cry sometimes. thanks for every kind word. *hug* yes this is a miracle baby. yes He can make anything into good.

Congrats!!!!! on your baby. what r u having???? pm me sometime and we can talk sometime. i can reply when i get online...

g'nite...

 

[livingdeadgirl07]

You are truly an inspiration. Good luck with your baby, and God bless.

Remember, God always provides.

 

[WhoeverLovesGod01]

That's amazing! Remember, all life comes from God...so you were raped, but this baby is from God. You'll be a hero if you raise this baby.

 

[lostndown]

awww. thanks. yea i'll be the mom/dad til im married and stuff. hugs. it'll be HARD but it'll be ok. yea i told him No to sex the whole time but he didnt use anything and he didnt listen = rape, and i got preg. from it. i am scared but will be ok. God is good and will help me.

i start my new counselor tomorrow at 1:30pm. i go to her support group from 11:30am - 1pm so yea. i hope i can just be really open and stuff and if i need to, i can cry. the session lasts 40 minutes or so, but thats fine.

i agree totally, this baby is from God. a blessing!

~michelle~

*hugs* thanks!

 

[tel0004]

God Bless you. I hope you have a beautiful healthy baby!

 

[lostndown]

thanks!!! me 2. im scared but we're gonna be ok. God will help me get a job and insurance and a good dr and baby stuff. *hugs*

thanks for encouragement.... means alot.

have a great night and week!

 

[New Creation]

wow, thats tough. thank you for encouragement. i feel better bout the baby now hearing that. im scared but im ok. i felt a 2nd kick tonite and baby's moving more.

i have bad nightmares sometimes and its scary, bout the rape.... i just wanna cry sometimes. thanks for every kind word. *hug* yes this is a miracle baby. yes He can make anything into good.

Congrats!!!!! on your baby. what r u having???? pm me sometime and we can talk sometime. i can reply when i get online...

g'nite...

I'm so happy that you felt the baby kick! Isn't that exciting?

I'm so sorry you are having nightmares about the rape sister. I hope you have someone you can talk to about all this. It's important!

Thanks about the baby! I don't know what we're having yet- it'll be a surprise! We're due any day now!
If you ever want to talk, pm me too, ok? I'll probably be busy with the baby really soon but I will do my best to get back to you as soon as possible! God bless you sister!

 

[lostndown]

awwwwwwwww how exciting hon!!!! yay, congrats...

thanks. im excited bout being a mommy.

yea its not fun having nightmares and stuff. yes i have a friend and a support group/counselor i can talk to as well bout stuff. i have an appt at 1:30pm today for counselor so it's ok.. support group is at 11:30am - 1pm.

i'll pm u my email addy and we can stay in touch by email when we can both be online....

*feels my tummy* hehe.... baby's name: Girl - Alexis Kayelyn, Boy - Christopher Ryan.

g2g but pm me sometime. thanks. good luck with labor/delivery. i'll keep you/baby/family in my prayers.

 

[New Creation]

awwwwwwwww how exciting hon!!!! yay, congrats...

thanks. yea its really exciting feeling baby kick when it wants to, hehe.... i feel more movement at night when im in bed. it's cute. im excited bout being a mommy.

I've pretty much felt baby the most at night when I'm trying to go to sleep as well! It is cute, isn't it? Baby gets hiccups fairly often as well- that's even funnier.

yea its not fun having nightmares and stuff. yes i have a friend and a support group/counselor i can talk to as well bout stuff. i have an appt at 1:30pm today for counselor so it's ok.. support group is at 11:30am - 1pm.

i'll pm u my email addy and we can stay in touch by email when we can both be online....

*feels my tummy* hehe.... baby's name: Girl - Alexis Kayelyn, Boy - Christopher Ryan.

g2g but pm me sometime. thanks. good luck with labor/delivery. i'll keep you/baby/family in my prayers.

I love the names you have picked out!

We have decided on John-Paul David for a boy and Meaghan Hazel for a girl. David and Hazel are my folks' names and I'm very excited about being able to honour them!

I'm really glad you are in a support group sister and that you have people to talk to!

God bless!

 

[lostndown]

awwwww adorable!! hehe... yea its cute... hugs. how r u???? i hope baby is happy and healthy!!!! it'll be cool. yea went to group and counselor today. it went well.. thanks for encouragement. email me anytime... *hugs* i feel comfy talking bout stuff here, and it means alot to know yall care. thanks

 

[Kims]

Praise the Lord, God bless you.

Your baby will truly be a blessing to you.

 

[lostndown]

thanks. im trying to decide adoption or definately keeping baby. after re reading this whole post, i decided keep it, cuz i'll be a good mommy, im just nervous. i gotta get a job, so i can support baby. hugs. thanks for all your support... it means soooooo much. im gettin bigger and baby is moving.

im gettin a obgyn appt when i can get there, so i can get ultrasound and stuff. im nervous bout the exam if they do one but it'll be ok... i'll let u know how it goes, when i get the appt.

i g2g get ready for a reunion but yea. i'll be back online when i can. thanks everyone!

 

[lostndown]

i decided im keepin baby for sure. im hangin out with a friend so its cool. i am not giving MY baby up. not a good idea, cuz id get depressed and ya. not cool at all. i am ok tho. last night i felt kinda sick but im ok now. pm me if ya have any advice on what to do or not to do these last 4 months. thanks yall

~michelle~

 

[Shannonkish]

Thanks for sharing Lost.

 

[lostndown]

you're welcome.

update:
baby is not moving as much i can feel it growing, kinda weird but neat. this baby is a miracle and im nervous but happy about it, under the circumstances. it'll be tough but i am tough as well so we'll pull through fine. God is our protector...



thanks for listening.

 

[lostndown]

i went to dr this wednesday and they did an ultrasound but my baby didnt show up. i was like, "i bled alot and cramped really bad last month, and dunno if baby passed". the dr felt my tummy and stuff and said, "im really sorry but u had a misc. when u bled that much."

thanks for the wishes. im just down/upset. pm me if i can talk to you. thanks for prayers. i could use em now too. *hugs*

~michelle~ (alicia)

 

[flower child]

in really really admire you, i was 6 weeks preggy and i couldnt cope, my baby was created with the man i love, but becasue of my fear of children and being so young - and what would the church think ( im in a possision of leadership ) we couldnt cope with having a baby.

Your situation must have been heartbreaking, but you still seem to see the best of your situation.God will truly honour that and bless your life with your baby.

i pray protection over you, from any negative thoughts and words towards you.

XXXX
much love in christ