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Hi, I'm Josh and I am new to christian forums (coming from bibleforums.org). Something strange happened to me last night. I would've posted this on bibleforums but that site isn't working right now so I'll post it here. It was about 3-4 AM and I was in bed, in the state of mind just after being awoken, somewhere between wakefulness and sleep, when, with my eyes closed, I felt fear run through my body, I saw a white flash of light, accompanied by a swooshing sort of noise, and then I heard my name being called. "Josh." The voice didn't sound like thunder or what I would imagine God's voice to be, rather, it sounded nasal and maybe like a distortion of my own voice/thoughts.
Later on that night I continued to feel fear rack through my body several times, and then I heard screaming in my ears. Hearing this screaming has happened to me before, but not seeing the flash of light accompanied by the noise and my name being called.
During this time I saw words in my head, which gave me the impression that there was some sort of real-time discussion going on in heaven concerning me. Some of the words said things like, "Test him, do it again", but then other words said, "No - he's not ready now, he's too afraid. Give it time." But the whole time I was half-wondering whether I was making the whole thing up in my head - simply visualizing these words in my mind because I desired it to be real. Does anyone else see words in their head when they think?
I'm from a nondenominational background but I sometimes have had doubts/thoughts about whether I'm in the right church, I've wondered about whether true prophecy is still active in the church today, but Hebrews 1:1-2 appears to say no to that. I've wondered about spiritual gifts as well, but 1 Cor 13:8-10 appears to say they have passed away, as I understand. In any case, I've recently been praying to God to let me prophesy or to have spiritual gifts, but nothing really has happened. Sometimes thoughts or fragments of sentences come into my mind but I have a suspicion that I'm merely making it up in my own mind, rather than it coming from the Holy Spirit or God the Father. Closest thing that has happened to me was when I had a headache and I asked God to heal me of it, and it felt like it lessened in the moment, but I wasn't sure if it was really because of the prayer or because of something else.
Thanks for your thoughts. Just trying to prayerfully work through honest questions and come to the truth, whatever it is.
Later on that night I continued to feel fear rack through my body several times, and then I heard screaming in my ears. Hearing this screaming has happened to me before, but not seeing the flash of light accompanied by the noise and my name being called.
During this time I saw words in my head, which gave me the impression that there was some sort of real-time discussion going on in heaven concerning me. Some of the words said things like, "Test him, do it again", but then other words said, "No - he's not ready now, he's too afraid. Give it time." But the whole time I was half-wondering whether I was making the whole thing up in my head - simply visualizing these words in my mind because I desired it to be real. Does anyone else see words in their head when they think?
I'm from a nondenominational background but I sometimes have had doubts/thoughts about whether I'm in the right church, I've wondered about whether true prophecy is still active in the church today, but Hebrews 1:1-2 appears to say no to that. I've wondered about spiritual gifts as well, but 1 Cor 13:8-10 appears to say they have passed away, as I understand. In any case, I've recently been praying to God to let me prophesy or to have spiritual gifts, but nothing really has happened. Sometimes thoughts or fragments of sentences come into my mind but I have a suspicion that I'm merely making it up in my own mind, rather than it coming from the Holy Spirit or God the Father. Closest thing that has happened to me was when I had a headache and I asked God to heal me of it, and it felt like it lessened in the moment, but I wasn't sure if it was really because of the prayer or because of something else.
Thanks for your thoughts. Just trying to prayerfully work through honest questions and come to the truth, whatever it is.