Urges Back Recently

[Mayflower1]

I think it is from stress because I have had a job change recently where I have been working three jobs. 75 hours a week. Tomorrow is my last day of one of them, so hopefully that will help because I will have a regular work schedule again and have time to breathe. But I know when I get stressed out, I have a tendency to have these urges. I have handled them pretty well thus far and haven't done anything. At the same time, I haven't been alone much either because of work. once this job ends, I'm sort of afraid of my free time for awhile because I don't want to do anything. I will just play it by ear. I know I have a lot of support. It is just annoying sometimes, because I have had a good handle on it a long time and anytime I get overwhelmed or overly stressed, the urges come back again. baaaaaaaaaaaad habit

 

[forGod1]

you know, if you want the urge to leave forever, that's within God's power. don't hurt yourself ever again.. because there are millions of Christians, outside of your personal circle of friends and family, that love you. I see your picture and I see life.. this urge is so weird. why would it keep coming up? anyways.. go see a doctor and a pastor. in whichever order you wish. lol

 

[chrisstavrous]

I think it is from stress because I have had a job change recently where I have been working three jobs. 75 hours a week. Tomorrow is my last day of one of them, so hopefully that will help because I will have a regular work schedule again and have time to breathe. But I know when I get stressed out, I have a tendency to have these urges. I have handled them pretty well thus far and haven't done anything. At the same time, I haven't been alone much either because of work. once this job ends, I'm sort of afraid of my free time for awhile because I don't want to do anything. I will just play it by ear. I know I have a lot of support. It is just annoying sometimes, because I have had a good handle on it a long time and anytime I get overwhelmed or overly stressed, the urges come back again. baaaaaaaaaaaad habit

Remember you've been down that road, you know exactly where it goes.

 

[Mayflower1]

yes! and I was successful in not going down that road!

 

[Krissy Cakes]

Lily!

You have an amazing testimony and it would be sad to mess it up just on urges.

If you have a counselor I would continue to keep talking to them but if you don't I would get one.

I am praying for you.

 

[MissRowy]

I had urges recently and it was Gods power that pushed those urges away from me. I will keep praying for you that God can heal you also and prevent harm coming to you.

 

[JohnLocke]

I think it is from stress because I have had a job change recently where I have been working three jobs. 75 hours a week. Tomorrow is my last day of one of them, so hopefully that will help because I will have a regular work schedule again and have time to breathe. But I know when I get stressed out, I have a tendency to have these urges. I have handled them pretty well thus far and haven't done anything. At the same time, I haven't been alone much either because of work. once this job ends, I'm sort of afraid of my free time for awhile because I don't want to do anything. I will just play it by ear. I know I have a lot of support. It is just annoying sometimes, because I have had a good handle on it a long time and anytime I get overwhelmed or overly stressed, the urges come back again. baaaaaaaaaaaad habit

Honestly, I would schedule some low stress recreation, like inviting over the film buff/art historian over for an evening of movies and popcorn. Or take Baz' advice and "Do something that scares you, everyday."

I'd tend to avoid "competitions" though friendly beer league is fine. (Just don't keep score or hold grudges. Makes it more fun for me.

Be careful of self deprecating humor, yes it can be very funny, unfortunately sometimes people take to it and make you the butt of their jokes which is less fun.

 

[Kristen.NewCreation]

Hopefully lily, you are in a much better space this year at this time. I think your thread is a good reminder right now at the start of 2015, that managing our stress and knowing that our stress can trigger urges to self-injure is significant. This is classic for lots of people! We tend to turn to what we are most used to when coping, even when it's been something negative.

So once again, even though it's a year later, celebrating that you made awesome choices in setting up your life during that highly stressful time, and being such a great example for us now to be able to learn from in our times of struggle.

Hope you're doing well!

 

[graciesings]

I self injured a few nights ago and I'm seeing how long I can stay strong. I am hoping for a month. So far, the urges aren't back yet....

 

[graciesings]

I self injured a few nights ago and I'm seeing how long I can stay strong. I am hoping for a month. So far, the urges aren't back yet....

Huh... Not sure why I posted that in this thread... Weird. I thought it was in one of the others. Sorry to detail the thread with how I'm feeling, guys.

 

[Mayflower1]

you are okay Gracie! Good job on a month! that is the hardest. I am doing well. I still have urges once in awhile. I have learned to say if I do slip back to "oops, I did it again." and not dwell on it too badly. I haven't even had a slip up in a long time. I just got put on a new med for hallucinations and such so I think that might help. I believe it is within God's power for these urges to completely leave one day, but it also humbles me and makes me stronger each time I say no. I am much stronger then I was in the past. I have so much more hope and joy now. anyway just saw this thread. I know it has been awhile. I hope everyone is doing well.

 

[graciesings]

I self injured a few nights ago and I'm seeing how long I can stay strong. I am hoping for a month. So far, the urges aren't back yet....

Woot! Thanks for bumping this thread... I am at close to 6 weeks now

 

[Mayflower1]

Im having urges since I started my new job. I have been strong in them, and know how to handle them. I haven't had a set back, but keep me in prayer!!!! Im going on my third week at my new job. I just feel that pressure to perform so that is what is causing them. So I am trying to keep some affirmations that it is okay to make mistakes, and I am doing a good job. and that is so wonderful gracie!!!! proud of you!!!!

 

[Zandry42]

Even if you don't feel like talking to people when you want to hurt yourself, it can be helpful to try out a hobby you find interesting. That way, you always have something to fall back to when the urge is stronger.