OK, so I haven't really posted in quite a long time, though I have made a couple replies. I guess right now, I'm just trying to figure out what to do with myself at this point. I've struggled with an eating disorder for 4-5 years now, though have had problems with food since I was 4 yrs old. I've been hospitalized, though that was more geared to my self-injury, and I have also gone through IOP. IOP was about a year ago and I was never actually graduated out of there, more like taken out of it because I was getting no where, even though I was in it for 2 months. Technically I just kept getting worse. Anywho, after that I was supposed to go to inpatient, but never did. I was doing better, for a time anyway, mainly cause I wanted to get back in school and then because of my now husband.
Well, to get to the point, I guess I don't know what to do at this point. I've been struggling a lot lately (not like I wasn't before, but at least then I was some how able to just force things upon myself and just let the thoughts run through my head still). I did see a doctor about a week ago, since I now have insurance and I did bring up my ED, so now I have to see him a week from now to talk more about my ED and figure out what to do with me. I'm really nervous about that, I don't even know what he can do or suggest. Maybe he'll put me back on meds, which I don't really want, but maybe I need them, I don't know. But what else is there?? I'm in a way scared, but I don't think there's really anything to be scared of.
I also don't know what to do right now, until that time comes. I hate disappointing my husband and certainly hate disappointing God. I just wish there was a way to make things go away so everything will just turn out a bit better then they are right now.
Anyway, I'm not really sure why I'm writing this, I guess I'm just wanting to get my worries out, instead of just keeping them to myself. Well...sorry for the length. I hope you all are doing well and have a happy day
Well, to get to the point, I guess I don't know what to do at this point. I've been struggling a lot lately (not like I wasn't before, but at least then I was some how able to just force things upon myself and just let the thoughts run through my head still). I did see a doctor about a week ago, since I now have insurance and I did bring up my ED, so now I have to see him a week from now to talk more about my ED and figure out what to do with me. I'm really nervous about that, I don't even know what he can do or suggest. Maybe he'll put me back on meds, which I don't really want, but maybe I need them, I don't know. But what else is there?? I'm in a way scared, but I don't think there's really anything to be scared of.
I also don't know what to do right now, until that time comes. I hate disappointing my husband and certainly hate disappointing God. I just wish there was a way to make things go away so everything will just turn out a bit better then they are right now.
Anyway, I'm not really sure why I'm writing this, I guess I'm just wanting to get my worries out, instead of just keeping them to myself. Well...sorry for the length. I hope you all are doing well and have a happy day