I suggest I might be wasting my time. if you do not believe that Study, science and reason, support, not hinder, Faith.
For instance do you believe in a young earth? or disbelieve evolution? because of uncritical belief in the bible. If that is so, we have more than Universal Salvation separating us from reality.
If you are not seeking YHWH'S Kingdom, nothing you do matters - all of life is then a waste of time.
Yes, you are separated from reality. The more you post, the more this is obvious.
Nothing supports true faith if what you believe is untrue (such as the main example you already admitted).
Because of believing a lie, like Eve did, it will be more difficult for you to turn to God , perhaps. (I'm not sure why it should be more difficult, except as you said you have believed the lie for so long....
the root of why you started IN THE FIRST PLACE - WHO FIRST TOLD YOU THE LIE -
might go a long way to healing,
but again, ONLY if you seek YHWH'S KINGDOM, seeking the TRUTH, opposed to the lie you already admitted (without knowing yet WHO TAUGHT YOU THE LIE- what person or demon or group?)
This is NOT UNUSUAL - most people on earth, most people in every group, never find the truth because they do not seek the truth. They just go along with the lie along with all the people they are comfortable with , or surrounded by -
this is critically difficult when they are dependent on the group or family or whatever,
since to turn to the truth may result in their being kicked out, abandoned, losing their support that they trusted in in error.
So true, few ever even take the steps of faith to seek God's Kingdom - they don't TRUST GOD and they don't want to give up their love for the world and the things of the world, thus they are NEVER SAVED, not in this life, and
no possibility in the resurrection, no , none at all , ACCORDING TO GOD.