- Dec 4, 2019
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I am still really struggling and confused still afraid that I might face enteral condemnation for accidentally worshiping Satan and that I lost my name from the Lamb's Book of Life for an accident everyone in my life keeps telling me that confusing Jesus and Satan in a dream/hallucination isn't Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit but it truly feels real.
Everyone keeps telling me God is love and that he would never hold a mentally ill person responsible of psychosis but it feels real the stuff I see on my body scares me but everyone tells me it isn't truly real that I really don't have the Mark of the Beast from a dream and they tell me the fact I thought it was Jesus proves my heart on the matter as I was praying when the yellow light appears to me and I had no of knowing it was Satan as I out of it mentally.
I keep hearing voices saying, "I tricked your brain into Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit." It breaks my heart it wasn't my choice it was a dream/hallucination in front of me seeing stuff appear out of nowhere and seeing lights everywhere. My heart and brain still loves Jesus and Praise Music, Holy Bible, and listening to preachers.
My heart was not to worship Satan I would never worship Satan in my right mind if I knew the light was Satan I would have never bowed but I assumed it was Jesus my brain tricked me into bowing and I couldn't stop myself but I still can't figure out how accidentally confusing Satan and the Holy Spirit in a dream is blasphemy everyone tells me it isn't but it sure feels real everyone tells me it is a verbal sin and they tell me I am not going to miss rapture for accidentally confusing Satan and Jesus in a hallucination/dream.
Am I truly okay with God despite confusing him with Satan. Does God still love me despite my mistake? Is he going to hold me responsible for an accident where I wasn't conscious I didn't consciously worship Satan it truly was mental illness that led me to bowing and my own decision. I wasn't willingly or willfully trying to Blaspheme God, Jesus, or the Holy Spirit my heart loves the Holy Trinity and I have always tried to avoid dark satanic stuff outside of script reading.
I am just worried that I will be punished for a dream and that God will prevent me from being raptured and removing my name from the Lamb's Book of Life for an unconscious decision out of my control with the lights as I truly love Jesus.
Everyone keeps telling me God is love and that he would never hold a mentally ill person responsible of psychosis but it feels real the stuff I see on my body scares me but everyone tells me it isn't truly real that I really don't have the Mark of the Beast from a dream and they tell me the fact I thought it was Jesus proves my heart on the matter as I was praying when the yellow light appears to me and I had no of knowing it was Satan as I out of it mentally.
I keep hearing voices saying, "I tricked your brain into Blasphemy of the Holy Spirit." It breaks my heart it wasn't my choice it was a dream/hallucination in front of me seeing stuff appear out of nowhere and seeing lights everywhere. My heart and brain still loves Jesus and Praise Music, Holy Bible, and listening to preachers.
My heart was not to worship Satan I would never worship Satan in my right mind if I knew the light was Satan I would have never bowed but I assumed it was Jesus my brain tricked me into bowing and I couldn't stop myself but I still can't figure out how accidentally confusing Satan and the Holy Spirit in a dream is blasphemy everyone tells me it isn't but it sure feels real everyone tells me it is a verbal sin and they tell me I am not going to miss rapture for accidentally confusing Satan and Jesus in a hallucination/dream.
Am I truly okay with God despite confusing him with Satan. Does God still love me despite my mistake? Is he going to hold me responsible for an accident where I wasn't conscious I didn't consciously worship Satan it truly was mental illness that led me to bowing and my own decision. I wasn't willingly or willfully trying to Blaspheme God, Jesus, or the Holy Spirit my heart loves the Holy Trinity and I have always tried to avoid dark satanic stuff outside of script reading.
I am just worried that I will be punished for a dream and that God will prevent me from being raptured and removing my name from the Lamb's Book of Life for an unconscious decision out of my control with the lights as I truly love Jesus.