Yahweh sounds like an angry God, I wouldn't want to mess with him. I certainly don't understand him. How about you?
Sorry I guess I was being arrogant. But, I don't understand God at all and I am deathly afraid of him.
Have you talked to your priest or a priest about this?
Yes and no, I've had issues.
While you are afraid of God, you can misunderstand Him. Yes, there is reason to be afraid, if someone is not with God. But God wants us to change out of that and trust Him.
Jesus suffered and died like He did, so we would not suffer the wrath of God. We can consider how much Jesus suffered, and how He died. He knows what hell is like, and He found it worthwhile to suffer that much, in order to keep us from going there.
You can make an issue about God ordering the death of children, but Jesus has suffered much more than any of those children did . . . I would say . . . by the way. And there is all that God knows, that we don't. One thing I just thought of is how humans can make idols of children; God doesn't. And this life, compared to God, is how much? Without Jesus, how much is a life? Yes, there is the potential of a human life, but without Jesus there is the horribleness of Satan's evil spirit > "the spirit who now works in the sons of disobedience" (in Ephesians 2:2).
But I am trusting you not to misunderstand this. God does not want us to take people's lives . . . even if they are evil > please see Ezekiel 33:11. Jesus came and suffered like He did and died like He did, so any and all evil people might be saved. But certainly He did not come to keep our lives going the way they are!!
Many humans are in living death, in their selfish loving (Proverbs 13:15). They make children and spouses and friends love idols > Matthew 5:46 < and so they are in deep ruin, not being able to personally share with God in love while sharing as His family with all of Jesus Christ's brothers and sisters.
And Jesus on the cross died with hope for any evil person, at all. So, God's love has us alive in hope for any evil person, at all. This is included in sharing with Jesus our Groom in His love . . . more and more as we grow in this.
So, yes you might have reason to be afraid of God; but He does not want you to keep on having that "reason" > 1 Jon 4:17-18. Jesus has hope for any person, at all, no matter how hard and horrible your problem is >
"'Come to Me, all you who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.'" (Matthew 11:28-30)
One time, certain people refused Jesus, and His disciples asked Him if they should call down fire from heaven upon those people. Jesus said they were being messed-with by an evil spirit, I understand. And then He said He did not come to destroy people's lives, but to save > Luke 9:51-56.
So, yes there are times when it has fitted with God's overall plan and purpose, that even the unborn have died or been killed, but this does not mean that God wants us to be glad that evil people or people conceived in lust and a selfish and idolatrous spirit have died. But we are specialists in love and mercy and compassion and forgiveness, like Jesus on the cross >
"And walk in love, as Christ also has loved us and given Himself for us, an offering and a sacrifice to God for a sweet-smelling aroma." (Ephesians 5:2)
So, you can become a person who is helping people to have life of love. Trust in Jesus for forgiveness and reconciliation with God, and learn with Jesus and find all He desires to share with us as His family.
God bless you
Bill
