Hi there, my husband and I are newly weds and are having a lot of difficulty having sex. I experience pain when he inserts just one finger and as such we have yet to progress past that, much less to full consummation. As it is both our first times, I feel quite nervous and flinch / tense a lot, even with gentle touches. At times he cannot even insert his finger. When I do manage to relax, the pain goes away. However it is very hard to relax when I'm acutely aware that pain is just round the corner. Does anyone have a similar experience or any advice for relaxing and not anticipating pain so much? Is this normal and how can I overcome it? Will greatly appreciate prayers as well
Hey great, great question! Thank you for your bravery in asking. I was very relieved to read that when you are able to relax that the pain does go away.
So let's focus on just that. Relaxation. Comfort. Cuddling. Remember, just because you want to have sexual intercourse, doesn't always mean that your body IS ready for such an act. And if it's not ready, then pushing in past the vaginal entrance will just leave you more and more painful and not wanting to ever have to do that again. So what can you do? First off, keep talking with your husband. Letting him know that your entrance is tight. But not only is it probably tight, it's probably dry. Your body can make enough moisture eventually, but sometimes it needs help.
And help may not be in the way you initially think. So let me explain it like this. Have you ever had a sore muscle in your arm or your leg? What did you do about it? Well first off, you probably rested it. But then you started to stretch it and massage it. Dry massage might work, but lotion or an oil would be easier and smoother. But if you never touched that leg muscle, never massaged it because it hurt, never tried to use that muscle...then it will remain stiff and frozen. The same thing is happening at your vaginal entrance. You have got to touch it. This may come as a shock to you, but touching your body is NOT A SIN. It is NOT DIRTY. There is not a verse anywhere in scripture that condemns a woman touching her body.....ANYWHERE or EVERYWHERE.
So that is exactly what I'm encouraging you to do, touch and massage your body for 15-20 minutes. Once a day for a month. A solid month. Yes, even on your period. If it's too messy, then do it in the bath or shower. Take some coconut oil or lubricant, on your fingers and gently start massaging the external part of your vaginal area. While doing so, remember to breathe in to your belly. Short shallow breaths into your chest will just keep you worked up, but slow deep breaths will help your body to relax. After the first 5 minutes working the top external area, then slowing work down with your fingers to the vaginal entrance. Your body may initially be surprised at the touch, but keep it slow and gentle. You will probably be more relaxed knowing it's just you touching, versus your husband touching because you instinctively know where it hurts whereas he wouldn't.
So keep going and slowly allow yourself to go deeper. Maybe for the first 5-7 days, don't even try to insert a finger. Because you need time to feel comfortable with your own touch. And never, ever, ever push in until your comfortable. Just slowing "dance" around the edges, remembering to breathe, until your body naturally relaxes (AND IT WILL!!! I PROMISE YOU!!!!!!!!!) and as it does gently insert one or two fingers and allow your body to accept it.
Keep doing this for the full 30 days. I also would encourage you to journal in a small notebook (yes, actually write it out versus just taking a mental note of it) and watch yourself slowly change over the many days. I think you'll be pleasantly surprised at how your body begins to become more lubricated and juicy...and more relaxed.
Then when it is time for you and your husband to be together, ask him to be very slow with you. I mean super slow. Allow time for the natural lubrication to be formed, and use other lubrications (like coconut oil). If you're not ready and open for him to come inside of you, then be honest enough to tell him. From what you have written already, your new husband sounds like an absolute gem of an understanding and loving man. And I'm sure, extremely sure, that he would never want to do anything that would cause you great pain and suffering...and that includes sex. So know that it's never your "duty" to be penetrated in sexual intercourse. The Bible says to render due benevolence, and there are many other ways to give that benevolence to your husband other than your vaginal area. Your hand or your mouth are also acceptable
Let me know if you have any more questions!