Hi guys and girls,
My name is Peng Chin and I have a sad story. I’m in a period of doubt and adversity right now and am very sad.
You see, I have a serious mental condition which I won’t disclose here. I was recently hospitalized for the first time and came out with severe repercussions. I didn’t hurt anyone while I was having my psychosis, only myself, but because of this the doctor is forcing me to take injections or he won’t allow me to resume my studies.
The injections are so potent that it has made me non functional. I have memory problems now and when I concentrate too hard I get a burning sensation in my brain and it’s hard to concentrate and process information. I used to want to be a scriptwriter and author, but now this dream has been robbed from me. Needless to say I find it hard to write or even be creative now and the only thing I can write well are songs and poems. Besides my talent, I have also lost my drive and passion for life and my goals in general. I have underwent ECT as well for nine rounds and I think this contributes to my lack of motivation too. I don’t think I can write anymore and have been deciding to put my passion and hopes and dreams in the drawer although I’m only 22.
My biggest fear now is having to be on disability because the injection has made me so non functional. I’m on break right now and will resume my studies next February, so please pray that I’ll recover from this. The problem here is that the doctor won’t allow me back on pills because i was non compliant. I was that way because I was in denial that I had the illness. I really regret it now but there’s not a chance in the world that the doctor is going to give me a second chance (I have asked repeatedly). The medicine he is giving me is called inVega sustenna and it takes ages to be completely cleared from your body. Some claim to never have recovered. I’m very scared it will never leave me as I may have to take it for four years to graduate.
There are many more complications but I’ll leave it here. Please pray for me as I’m broken hearted and broken in spirit. Thank you and I hope you have an awesome day.
My name is Peng Chin and I have a sad story. I’m in a period of doubt and adversity right now and am very sad.
You see, I have a serious mental condition which I won’t disclose here. I was recently hospitalized for the first time and came out with severe repercussions. I didn’t hurt anyone while I was having my psychosis, only myself, but because of this the doctor is forcing me to take injections or he won’t allow me to resume my studies.
The injections are so potent that it has made me non functional. I have memory problems now and when I concentrate too hard I get a burning sensation in my brain and it’s hard to concentrate and process information. I used to want to be a scriptwriter and author, but now this dream has been robbed from me. Needless to say I find it hard to write or even be creative now and the only thing I can write well are songs and poems. Besides my talent, I have also lost my drive and passion for life and my goals in general. I have underwent ECT as well for nine rounds and I think this contributes to my lack of motivation too. I don’t think I can write anymore and have been deciding to put my passion and hopes and dreams in the drawer although I’m only 22.
My biggest fear now is having to be on disability because the injection has made me so non functional. I’m on break right now and will resume my studies next February, so please pray that I’ll recover from this. The problem here is that the doctor won’t allow me back on pills because i was non compliant. I was that way because I was in denial that I had the illness. I really regret it now but there’s not a chance in the world that the doctor is going to give me a second chance (I have asked repeatedly). The medicine he is giving me is called inVega sustenna and it takes ages to be completely cleared from your body. Some claim to never have recovered. I’m very scared it will never leave me as I may have to take it for four years to graduate.
There are many more complications but I’ll leave it here. Please pray for me as I’m broken hearted and broken in spirit. Thank you and I hope you have an awesome day.
