- Jan 6, 2018
- 60
- 60
- 30
- Country
- Brazil
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- In Relationship
Hi, my name is Felipe, I'm 25 years old and from 14 I have suicidal thoughts with two attempts at 15, since then I have managed to control for a while, without medication or therapy, I'm coming back with the medication, but I'm afraid to depend on it all life.
A long time I feel bad, I have never been good at dealing with people since school, this has only been growing since then, my parents said it would improve over time and with work, not improved, actually only got worse .
I feel like trash, a waste, a failure, I have difficulty interacting and dealing with people, in fact, I do not like being around people, I can not keep friends, I just do not feel like leaving or calling, just sending messages from Sometimes, and yet, there are only a few people I can identify with and somehow tie up, all the others bother me.
I do not feel like a man, I do not feel masculine, I feel weak, a loser ...
I wonder why I have this introverted personality? Why can not I be like the other guys my age? I do not drink, I do not smoke, I'm a virgin, but is it really worth it? I see other men around me, some are violent, some betray their wives, but no one doubts their masculinity.
The church lately has had movements about Christian masculinity, but what to do when the problem does not settle with a lecture? I feel anger, hatred, people only know that they do not make themselves men like they used to, but no one is willing to teach, my father made my father pregnant my grandmother and left home, my father tried his best in his way , but I still do not see it as an example.
The church lately has had movements about Christian masculinity, but what to do when the problem does not settle with a lecture? I feel anger, hatred, people only know that they do not make themselves men like they used to, but no one is willing to teach, my father made my father pregnant my grandmother and left home, my father tried his best in his way , but I still do not see it as an example.
Sometimes I think, as a man, my value is in how much money I have in my wallet? How much do I scream? Why must I constantly prove to society/church that I am a man? I'm sorry but people say one thing, but in behavior they do the opposite.
Sometimes ... I wonder if hell is like this ... a continuous pain burning inside ...
A long time I feel bad, I have never been good at dealing with people since school, this has only been growing since then, my parents said it would improve over time and with work, not improved, actually only got worse .
I feel like trash, a waste, a failure, I have difficulty interacting and dealing with people, in fact, I do not like being around people, I can not keep friends, I just do not feel like leaving or calling, just sending messages from Sometimes, and yet, there are only a few people I can identify with and somehow tie up, all the others bother me.
I do not feel like a man, I do not feel masculine, I feel weak, a loser ...
I wonder why I have this introverted personality? Why can not I be like the other guys my age? I do not drink, I do not smoke, I'm a virgin, but is it really worth it? I see other men around me, some are violent, some betray their wives, but no one doubts their masculinity.
The church lately has had movements about Christian masculinity, but what to do when the problem does not settle with a lecture? I feel anger, hatred, people only know that they do not make themselves men like they used to, but no one is willing to teach, my father made my father pregnant my grandmother and left home, my father tried his best in his way , but I still do not see it as an example.
The church lately has had movements about Christian masculinity, but what to do when the problem does not settle with a lecture? I feel anger, hatred, people only know that they do not make themselves men like they used to, but no one is willing to teach, my father made my father pregnant my grandmother and left home, my father tried his best in his way , but I still do not see it as an example.
Sometimes I think, as a man, my value is in how much money I have in my wallet? How much do I scream? Why must I constantly prove to society/church that I am a man? I'm sorry but people say one thing, but in behavior they do the opposite.
Sometimes ... I wonder if hell is like this ... a continuous pain burning inside ...